this could've been us. two angels whose worlds have merged to become one. to spend their whole lifetime together. yet, the other angel came down to earth to remain a lifeless, loveless being... she then drifts from the cloud of love that she has shared with her other angel, ready to face the pain and the life that awaits her in solitary loneliness.
You wished that I leave you.
I will, not because I want to, but to grant your plea.
Hon, I'm sorry. I know you can't simply bear this lifestyle. This is why you and ana didn't last long in the first place. This is why we always have fights. This is why you have asked me to leave.
I actually don't know what to do without you in my life...but it would be better that I let you go than to hurt you...
You are...
the most wonderful thing that happened in my life...
the one thing which i held on to after all these months...
the one who kept me going despite all the things which went wrong in my life....
the one who clearly understood all my flaws and imperfections...
the one who appreciated my inner beauty...
the one who accepted me for who i am and for what i'm not...
the one who made me a better person in every aspect...
the person i choose to love... for now and for always...
yet, i have to set you free.
it hurts not being with you...but it hurts to accept the fact that the reason why you're hurt is me.
hon, be strong.
no matter what kind of relationship you go into...
whoever you choose to love even the perfect girl, you can't avoid these things.
i never wanted these.
but as i can't do anything about them for now, i try to understand.
i don't know what specific span of time can heal this wound...
my heart may never love again.
i cannot ask you to leave me unscathed. i'm forever lost without you. but i want you to know,i'll be here. always wishing you the best and all of the happiness...
i love you.
goodbye.
do you want the awful truth???
i can't live without you...
i long for you...
i always want to be with you.
every moment in my entire life has been spent on thinking whether raffy is alright...
if raffy is happy...
if raffy is doing something...
if raffy is thinking of daryll too...
i always think of the warmth of your embrace...
the touch of your hands which makes me feel secured...
your lips...by which you have captivated my whole being.
when we fight, when you threaten to leave me, my world falls apart.
but i care the least to live if i don't have my life. because it's you all along. and then, when the fight is over, i can but claim you and promise myself not to let you go.
but this time, as imaginable as it may be, i try to break away from the only thing which has kept me living.
the pain is yes, unbearable, excruciating, utmostly profound.
the tears aren't enough to keep you from leaving...
to keep you here with the girl i have become with your love.
hon, thank you.
i'm sorry.
i love you.
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