Here goes nothing.

I was so excited 3 days ago after drafting my ideal sched: I had the teachers that I wanted with just the perfect time slots, ample amount of dead air to slack off and remember being human, and study breaks. My sucky random number left me no choice but to vie for the remaining slots in time for the 2nd batch in the online enlistment but of course, I wasn't able to push my luck any further.

THERE WERE NO SLOTS AVAILABLE and MY SCHED WAS IN TOTAL CHAOS when my turn to register came.

But in any case, here it is. I just hope that IF I don't get to load rev, my finance teacher isn't a total sucker and that Mr. Kang Mun Tan for OpMan isn't as bad as what people say. Or else I am going to the pits.

Junior Year 2nd Sem Sched

Bea and I already set up a huge game plan for next sem - that which will actually utilize all of our breaks and devote them to equally allotted portions of bum time, study time and exercise time. We even planned to get a locker so we can put our stash for survival there: pillows, gym clothes, snacks. Hahaha. And, get this, a diet plan so we can prep ourselves up for the impending weight gain that we have to face this holiday season. Of course I have to balance these with meetings and afternoon activities for orgs and other planning stuff. I really can't go home right after my classes anyway. I just have to promise myself to get work done during the free periods. So I guess it's me and my laptop and books and all the studying once again. But then, if I was able to do it last sem, I can pull off just as great this time. :)

UGH. The only thing I'm excited about next sem is having to shop for new school supplies. :|

OHWELL.

Frillyyyyyy.

I'M BACK! For the first time since my break! I've actually had the time to blooooooog about whatever that's welling up inside me right now. Distractions set aside and having accomplished most of my to-do list did great wonders to heave off a heavy burden from my chest. So this is good. It's all gooooood. :D

Since the internet is constantly suffering from disruptions, I might as well type this entry right now. The wifi here at home tends to slow the already shaky connection. So anyway. . .

My absence can only be explained by the lack of time that allowed me to sit around in my room and peruse the normal functions of the net, let alone sleep and give time for myself to relax after a really, can I say really really really stressful semester. But what do you know, my efforts actually paid off. :) Let's save that for later shall we?

Nothing really interesting was happening on my last week of Junior year. If anything, they were really mundane, procedural, rites of passage that formally endowed me with my liberty after the hell that was Junior year 1st Sem. And what do you know? My next semester is just as loaded - only heavier and more stressful and more crucial. Imagine 15 units of majors: Fundamentals of Finance, Principles of Production and Operations Management, Introduction to Multimedia Arts, Introduction to Broadcast Media, Visual Communication for Communication Managers AND Philosophy of the Human. UGH. Good thing we're way past the retention stage already (I calmly and most suitably settled mine) so that gave us less pressure. Now all we need to do is actually PASS and if lucky, make it through SOUNDLY SANE.

The day after my last final (well, not really the test but the Marketing Final Four), I decided to call it a sem and well... rest. But I had to leave the very next day for my Sanggu EvSem. Oh for the love of work indeed. It was kind of a heavy evaluation session since we all but conceded that we'll needto do MORE and be open to possible concussions in the system in the remaining four months of this year's term. Hmmm. The only fun I had in between was the first night when I got drunk and the second night after the dinuguan and puto halloween party which I salvaged then Aggie and I had to stay up until practically 5 in the morning rendering us zombies for the next day. It was all too emotional really.

My Sangooooo Famileeeh <3

But what the heck. Just after two days of rest (which I mostly slept off) I was out again and headed to the beach this time. Small planning was right on the agenda and the whole point of it was for all of us to have fuuun and prop our feet on top of those long body-length beach chairs with a good book to rest our heads on and yes, with the perfect swimsuit on for that delicious golden sunkissed tan.

The only monster which literally ate me was the GINORMOUS amount of food that we ate courtesy of THE powerful JV Roman who was apparently a homegrown in Bataan. Her connections fancied the hungry guests and gave us huge servings of seafood, liempo and all those cancerous but juicy and sumptuous grilled stuff. AAACKKK.

The surefire thing that the trip brought was the immediate bond that formed out of the never-ending kwentuhans, the illegal hotel indoor inumans and the stargazing by the beach where we actually romantically and hopelessly sighed at the shooting stars that we chanced upon. *AWWW*

One exciting addition: Alexis' waterproof camera.

And yet again after one day when I had the chance to recover my sleep, I was about to leave again for Camp Explore for one of my life changing involvements: The Ateneo Student Leaders Assembly. At first I was actually feeling the reluctance in having to go and spend an entire week doing the stuff I thought I already knew, coming from a week that drained all the energy remaining in me. But of course all of this changed within the span of 5 days. The good food, company and all the nerve-wracking and life transforming insights that I was able to get a hold of were priceless.

Imagine getting up in the ungodly hours of the morning just in time for breakfast, going through talks and GDs, small group sharings, big group challenges, immersing with the Dumagats (Aetas of the Antipolo hillside), finishing sessions at like past 12 even up to 3, being locked up in a cabin with all of the delegates for an entire night, sleeping under a ceiling full of freakishly weird insects, braving horror stories, NO CELLPHONE SIGNAL FOR 5 DAYS and not taking a bath for a whole day. OMG. These are just the minor stories behind my whole ASLA experience. Compared to what I am ready to bring to the whole world, well yeah, they are a bit tiny.

One batch: ASLA 7. :)

And so it was after that I really had the chance to hang around. NOT. My dear friend Ria just had to come home from Iloilo and bring a friend with her. So I took them out to Bureau last Saturday night [where I fookin' got picked up and fancied on by a fookin' red-haired Australian (okay sorry, I don't mean to discriminate)]. He was just really WEIRD and AGGRESSIVE. I know I don't have the best of luck when I'm around guys because I tend to always go for the familiar - the jerks. And much to my dismay, I've never taken a liking on repulsively offending and aggressive guys. EEEWWW. For me, they spell E-G-O.

And then the next day I had to take them out to the Manila Ocean Park - which SUCKED by the way. I wouldn't want to give it a review. The absence of order and sharks and whales really disappointed me. I really won't recommend people to visit that place. Not just yet.

So now, after two days, what could I have been possibly doing aside from fixing my next term's schedule, preparing a menu for the sleepover and ussing over all the clutter in my room, (that I promise to clean before the slumber party!)? Well, the rain and the sweet cold air was completed by my two-day sitting of Breaking Dawn. YEZZIR. I finished the book in just two sittings - one whole night and one whole early evening (with Burger Island breaks in between).

I will never get tired of bumming. In my defense, I finish my work anyhow!:)

Anyway, I'm sooooo psyched that I finished the saga already and I'm moving on to more more more good reads. I'm heading to the less mainstream this time - like this one that Aggie recommended: My Sister's Keeper which is a tearjerking novel. But before that, I really need to scoop up those premiere night tickets for the Twilight Movie. I am so dying to see it however it comes out. :)

My to-do list says I'll be spending my Halloween a bit differently this year. I usually spend it indoors with a bunch of my close friends with chick flicks and stuffed pillows. But because Laine has decided to host her 20th in Fiamma, I might as well sport my best costume (I'm planning fairy because I've always wanted to but never got the chance to be one) and just enjoy the night out. And then the day after that I actually invited a few of my HS friends over for the ultimate cookover slumber party: Mexican dinner, cupcakes and cocktails and Italian brunch the day after.

A lot of stuff's lined up actually. My dad's birthday next week and then 2 more weeks before school starts. Everything sped by so fast that I really have to grab everything and enjoy each bit of it. Till then. <3

Super ANNOYED.

I don't know, however you get through with your habit of annoying people by saying things you don't mean to, or by making sure you'd get the answer that you want while implying any other thing.

I don't know why you even think that I care that much to even BOTHER feeling this way when I almost, almost convinced myself to dismiss any thought related to you and then you just happened to come waltzing back in.

And I don't know how the hell I am going to figure a way out of this crappy sensation of worrying sick about what you really want to happen.

I just know that I want to.

Because I don't know what will ever happen if this goes on any further, given that you're being the UNPREDICTABLE and ANNOYING you.

You know that that pretty face can only get you as far as you may want to. But not even half the distance to any other girl's heart.

You don't even give them the chance to know what's underneath that face.

Just don't try too hard. Please. If it's not me that you want, then don't even bother wasting any second of your precious time convincing me that you actually do.

Oh. Sorry. I guess that was all me. I thought there was something. At least that's what you wanted me to do.

Happy now?

WOAH.

I need one o' these.
Okay, don't jinx it. :)

From this day forward...

I promise not to stalk you anymore.

I promise not to think of you anymore.

I promise not to feel pathetic because I miss you everyday.

I promise not to talk about you with my friends.

I promise not to expect anything anymore.

I promise to pretend that you never even existed.

I promise to keep it cool and to stay beautiful.

I promise to make you sorry for what you did, and did not do.

I promise to keep all of these promises until I finally get over everything related to you. <3

I just finished adding new gadgets to my Google widget. HAHAHA. I feel so happy seeing my new cat analog clock, dictionary and my countdown before Christmas applications. Ang BABAW ba? Get lost. Please. ;))

Choclit fondue.

You've covered me with enough sweetness to make my insides crumble.

Just because I know I could never get enough of you once I start to dig in.

And doing so would mean the very death of me.

So take my grubby hands off your luscious promise of sweet and savory goodness.

But don't leave me craving for you.

Leave enough room for my palate to get cleansed and renew its taste.

Because I know you don't intend to stick around and linger.