Dear Heart :)

Entry written while Dream A Little Dream is playing in the background. 


Dear Darilita, 


I know this may come as a surprise because you have made it a point to let everyone know that you've been dreading this day like a blood extraction. In the middle of frantically caffeine overdosed mornings and unjustly extended work hours, your yuppie life has been caught in the looming bitterness of this day. That, for the first time in how many years, you are back to the non-celebration and non-recognition of this occasion. That, amid the piles of things to do, you find yourself scouring for genuine reasons to feel happy for everyone around you who is, face it, not in the same state as you are right now. 


While convincing yourself that it is just a trivial day in the everyday marathon up the corporate ladder, it should be appropriated with nothing but a shrug on the shoulder, the right to dress nicely and the perfect excuse to indulge in spamper. Looking back on your aspirations a year ago, you hadn't achieved all the goals that you've set and you're not exactly where you want to be. But that's okay. Because it's proven that where you are now is somewhere a million times better. 


If there's something your 22 years in life have taught you it could be that one, you are the lone creature who will depend on yourself until the very end and that second, no time should be wasted doing/(spending) things/(with people) you do not love and live for. 


Stumbling upon the few epic romances of a lifetime has no less than proven that your worth is yet to be realized by a man whose value is beyond question. Value the luxury of having time for yourself and doing the things you want. Value the money that you save and spend, of being able to feel that everything you work hard for pay off to make you a sustainable living. Even without a man you have the incorruptible strength of a woman. Because really, you have surpassed your trials in life with everyone you could ever need, your family and friends. 


It is the same thing in knowing that you should never expend hours on people who will never respond and on things that are not worth your time. Choose your battles and know that not everything is within your control. Especially love. You can't force yourself to live with something that doesn't fuel you with the sincere kind of passion. Not even your personality, not even your chosen profession. 


It's alright to remain a hopeless romantic a month before you turn 23. You've had your share of love's polarities so it's time to settle for middle ground. There is one way to go from here: move forward to the countless encounters on who Mr. Right could be. Be in no hurry to try and get hurt, so that as you age and become better, you will have no regrets. 


Now that you have practically convinced everyone that you will don this day with a gift-giving of chocolates, do it without remorse, without pretentions and without bitterness. 


Do it without expecting any act of reciprocation from unwarranted parties. 


Do it because you are just filled with priceless happiness right now. ♥ 

Valentine's day is fairly overrated anyway. At least for the chunk of the population who can relate. Hahahaha :) 


Don't stop believing that he's out there, gorgeous, smart and loving, ready to sweep you away. He just doesn't know it yet. 


Love, 


Your ♡