Here I am again. I'm a Tuesday school blogger.

It's 12:08 pm. I'm here at the CTC Comp room. Wow. What a way to spend the remaining one hour and thirty minutes before my Fil 11 class. (Yeah!!! I'm in regular Fil!!!)

I just came from UP. I visited nie and Nikki a while ago and it feels good to see them. We just talked and ate together.ü

Hmmm. So what else? I feel better now. Well, at least much better than how I was feeling for the past few days. Right after i discovered the 3rd party thing, I haven't been myself lately.

Well you know how it is. It's my first time that I caught him in the act of 'flirting' with other girls. It didn't even occur to me that it was something he was capable of.=c (well, not really. I mean, considering his past... but I thought he was over that) At first, I couldn't do anything because it was his choice. All I could ask him was like if there was something missing in our relationship or if he wasn't contented. Last night, I gave him a 15 minute homily. He wasn't able to claim defense on most of the things I said because his mom got home at the exact time that I finished. I was about to add something when she entered the room.

Basically, I told him that even if the incident happened like days ago, I'm still bothered because I don't know the exact reason why he did it. Perhaps it would've helped if he just gave a blunt reason or if he came up with a lame excuse. Saying that he did it out of nothing made me feel even worse. I mean, you wouldn't ask for someone's number if you don't have anything to do with that person right?

I was also struck with the "We didn't get deep into stuff when we talked" thing. How about this, it's the mere fact that you did talk. ARGH.

Apparently, I'm so bothered and paranoid that I'm making a big deal out of what happened. I juts don't get it. Maybe it's due to the fact that it was his move to make. This happened a lot of times to me... Guys would insist on talking to me and it would just be easy for him to get mad and threaten them. Then, he'll get over it. How come? Because I make it a point to assure him that I don't want anything to do with other guys. I give him the sense of security that I don't care about other men; that i love him too much to even attempt to be an infidel. Yes, I'm not an infidel. One of the best things which kept this relationship last long and one of the things why he loves me is because I'm loyal.

So whoever that girl is, screw her. Nah, just kidding. I don't even know her. Nevertheless, I hope she realizes that the guy she's texting is already committed to someone and if she were in my place, she'd also feel this way.

Upon ending this, I still don't know the resolution to this problem. Maybe I should give it some time. (You know, be busy... Friday: Cheer rally, Blue Eagle gym.) True enough, I admitted that I lost trust in him. (Who wouldn't?) and that it would take a lot of time before I can recover from this.

Just these things:
* Karma will always put things in the right place and order.
* He gave his word to make up for what he's done.
* I do want this relationship to last.
* Guy instincts have certain limitations.
* If he's tempted to do bad things, then I should take it as a challenge to help him avoid them.
* If a relationship is devoid of problems, then it's nonsense.
* I just have to remain strong and hold on. It's God will that we go through this.
* One year has passed... I'm not letting go.

I live and love.

Just a song.

I used to think that I wasn't fine enough And I used to think I wasn't wild enough But I wont waste my time try'na figure out Why you playin' games, whats this all about? I cant belive your hurtin' me I met your girl, what a difference What you see in her, you ain't seen in me But I guess it was all just make believe [Chorus:] Oh, Love Never knew what I was missin' But I knew once we'd start kissin' I found... Love Never knew what I was missin' But I knew once we'd start kissin' I found... Found you [Verse 2] Now you're gone, what am I gonna do So empty, my heart, my soul, can't go on Go on without you Rainy days fade away, when you come around Please tell me, baby Why you go so far away (Why you go...) [Chorus] Who would have known, I'd find you? You... [Bridge:] Now you're gone, what am I gonna do So empty, my heart, my soul, can't go on Go on Baby without you Rainy days fade away, when you come around, say you're here to stay With me, boy I don't want you to leave me I need you... [Chorus] ×2 [fading]

I'm so freakin' bored.

Wow. It's 11 a.m. I' m stuck here at home with nothing else to do.

Well not really, I have to read a lot for my physics class but I'm just lazy to do so.

Yes, life has indeed changed. Sometimes I find myself thinking of obsessive thoughts... and then for a fleeting moment, I go back to reality. That I can never have much of what I want... That I still need to wait and hold on for a very long time to get what I wish and hope for.

At one point in your life, hope suddenly seems so distant and unreachable... love just seems so restless and rare... your soul just seems so unsatisfied and imprudent.

Promises seem undeserving to be kept.

Why do I even feel this way? A year ago, I couldn't care less. I was all about career2...

Now that I have everything I could wish for, the world instantly changes. =c

haaaay. Please tell me my instincts are wrong... and that I don't have anything to worry about.=c

Belated happy anniversary.ü

Keepin' busy.

Got these form Tara.ü



-----------------MARCH BABY -------------------- Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.


My perfect match:


---------------OCTOBER BABY ------------------- Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.


I'm really busy right now. Tomorrow's 'the' day.ü

It's me again. I'm back to being workaholic.=p

Hahaha. It's me. The nerd. The forever nerd. Well, I'll make this long next time when I don;t have much to do. Right now, I'm researching on stuff given by my prof in physics.=p

I'm here at schoolü

Rarrr. It's my break and my next class doesn't start until 1:30 pm. Hahahaha=p

Well, I'm really happy about the things that I've been doing. College life doesn't seem like hell at all. So far, I've enjoyed all the things that I've come to know and have exprienced here in AdMU.

My blockmates who're so great (course and english), my TnTs during the OrSem, the OrSem, my classes and my schedule for the first sem. The only bummer I have to endure for two weeks is my Math class because I belong to the 'basic' class. Hahahaha=p I just really have to study for the diagnostic test in the next two weeks.

Hmmmm. So there. My friends and I (the engaz family) still see each other. We have arranged scheds for us to go to school during Mondays, Wednedays and Fridays as our schedules come together during those three days.

Hon and I are preparing for our big day this Friday. We have no classes because it's faculty day but I guess I'll do something to fix up my sched so that I can come with my block gimmik in the morning and meet up with hon in the afternoon. We've been going home together for the past couple of days and it's really fun to be with him during the schoolyear. Hmmm. I'm just making up for my lack of time when I was still a senior. As promised, college life isn't as hectic as my senior year (with the aid of time management skills) so I have to make up ways so that we can spend time together.

I'm really excited.ü

Here goes the break that I deserve. I have to work hard on this.

---> computer lab, CTC AdMU.
12:10 pm

How it feels to finally be there.

I'm having such a great time during my Freshman OrSem in AdMU. As in.

Well, I really have a lot of stories to tell like how much i love my block, how I'm dreading my major subjects in management and my whole new life as an Atenean.ü

Yep.

So till here.ü

Bon Voyage.

I'm waiting for my rocket to take off. Goodbye.

I'll get the hang of it.

Rarrr. These past weeks have been really insane. Ever since he got back, I've been out a lot just having fun...blahblahblah.

And as if I'm having the same amount of bad luck as I had fun, I'm stuck here at home. Well, I'm here to talk about it.

First, the chain of really stressful days began when we went to the SM Mall of Asia. Due to a lot of misunderstandings, it turned out to be a whole fiasco. Haaay. It all involved the couple thingy.

Then, after all that was settled, the thing with the picture. It's not everyday your boyfriend goes berserk, but he was drunk and brainwashed... So there was a scene... People had to take days before they could get over it. Then after that we had our break... as in. Three straight days of fighting and break-ups. (Talk about going for a world record)

But in between, I had the chance to go to DLSU last Friday. It was a pleasant visit to Maann. (too bad Jackie had a class and I was too broke to hang-out in the afternoon). Of course, initially, I was pretty shock with the new environment. I had to act like one of them... although technically, I wasn't because even if I wasn't introduced as an Atenean, Maann made it clear to rub my school in every time she got. =p

So there. It was pretty tiring. Now, I have no idea as to how I'm going to spend my last week of liberty. Because I'm pretty much stuck here with nothing else to do. I really don't want to go over the details of what happened yesterday and a while ago.

I just feel like the world's falling apart. I really need to hibernate.