FREEDOM.

And then I start singing the song So Close from the movie Enchanted. So close to reaching the famous happy end... WHOOO. 


FRIENDS, I officially end my academic journey in a matter of hours (and 7 thesis statements). HAHAHA. So okay I'm not exactly off the hook yet. But then!

I swear I'm becoming so anxious about considering myself free of everything! EVERYTHING that's been pressuring me since PREP SCHOOL! Hahaha! Oh the feeling of euphoric liberation! :>

What's also nice about this is I totally have a full calendar even after my crazy scholastic schedule. Like I'm planning here and there on what to do with my free days, the errands that I have to run since they have been long postponed and of course, JOB HUNTING. LIKE HELLO. Haha :)

But before I drown in all of this excitement, I think I better prepare myself and not screw up my last oral exam in Ateneo EVER. I just want the drinks, the beach, a sure job, a driver's license and I'm OKAY.

Oh, WE'RE BACK. Like everyone else had predicted. Hahaha. :>

Summer 2008 - Bora + Iloilo. 

20 lbs lighter. 

Sunkissed and single.

2010 - even better? :>

KAGULO.

It's officially 28 hours and 2 requirements before I attain my so-called freedom. And can I just say, that things are really really really COMPLICATED now. As in super.

Which somehow explains my delusional attempt to fix my dying love life. Then I realized how often I have to be reminded that probably a huge chunk of this insanity is caused by my oral meds (which I am conveniently forced to take). Some people just don't understand. But he should, of all people. Haha.

I'm just so caught up in a mishmash and I don't really know how to fix this. My multitasking abilities are failing me so I just have to resort to postponing, delaying and denying. And for now, they are of least help to my crammed crammed crammed schedule of activities.

Because you see, I finally realize that I am selfish too. And out of frustration, I thought that I needed time to iron out my feelings and risk the complication rather than bearing with unwanted thoughts while silently sobbing and flipping through all my reviewers, very coercedly.

What am I even saying? I can't believe I'm thinking this way. Where's the love woman?!

I am rationalizing right? I do intend to fix this right? Help me :( :( :(

Signal Fire.

I love us. Every part of it. Every minute. Every second. Every smile. Every hint of pain. 

And because I am a changemaker at its very best, I decided to take the risk to try to fix things, differently. 

Because in this way, people grow and people change for the better.

So why am I even crying to the song The Scientist again? :( 

Because sometimes, the pain that you feel for the person you love becomes hard to bear. Especially if it was a decision that you had to make, even if your heart and your emotions raged odds and wars against it.

Nobody said it was easy. Oh take me back to the start.

For you, I'd do it all over again.

THE FINAL STRETCH.

So, before I totally immerse myself in tireless toiling over the last stretch of deadlines this week, I just wanted to savor the last bits of all-nighters and zitfest borne of academic pressure called SENIOR YEAR. 

Today was such a happy kick off day, had the chance to study, play Turbo Pizza, buy groceries and then have dinner at this small corner near the supermarket, I was a-ok.:)  Not exactly the perfect momentum that I needed in order to go on complete hiatus for my histo and com106 paper but oh well. Every minute well-spent. <3 

I just wanted to wallow on the fact that after this week, I officially move on to solving less mundane problems in the world and all-nighters will be well justified with monetary compensation. After this week, I will have to grudgingly let go of all the things that I held on to for 4 great years in the Ateneo. 4 overwhelmingly great years. 

But before I condition myself into that letting go phase, I can still sulk and bury myself in readings and paper drafts because of all the pitiful requirements that I have to go through before I can formally join the Graduation Rites this March. I-HATE-IT. 

Esp. Pabaon. 

Okay incoherent thoughts now. Back to work.

Cheers to you, Senior. :) 

Guess who's back :)

It is actually sad that I abandon my blog for a long time just so I could make up for lost hours of sleep. I always try to spare some time in between school work cramming and time with the boyfriend to look at tumblr and maybe, just maybe come up with a decent update on what's happening with my life. And here it is.

My life will reach the peak of its stress in two weeks (or not, something will definitely be able to outdo this) and will come to its full realization after 1 month.

This is the info posted on the JGSOM Dean's Bulletin Board near Ching Tan. Oh how fast time flies. GASP.

At the beginning of the year, it was actually me working non-stop, attending to different things every weekend like Brandstorm, immersion, Skills Camp, lalalalala (Will post a stream of pictures below) and everything was just freaking craaaazzzyyy.

Brandstorm (photo upload below) was great x10million as my awesome team moves on to the national finals this April in front of an international jury (uh-oh, time to learn French) and in front of the public in a showcase pitch. After that, it will be bienvenue à Paris! :)

Skills camp was a total blast. Got the chance to listen to professional speakers like Yuri Gagarin (no, not the Russian cosmonaut) of Accenture, the super awesome Carmel Valencia of L'oreal (who's a peacock like me) and Anton Diaz of Our Awesome Planet. My fellow seniors and I were so hyped up on that trading game that we had before closing the night. Too bad I wasn't able to stay for what I head was a very controversial inuman night.

Immersion was super super super fun (though equally uncomfortable). We were really pulled out of our bubbles to spend 3 days with no bath, no bed, no electricity, etc. in Mauban, Quezon Province. BUT, the food was great, the foster families were really accommodating and the highlight of everything (over and above pulling out weeds in muddy rice fields and dodging horse/carabao crap every step of the way) is LAMBANOG. Good times.

January finally drew its final marks on one of the best days of my year, when I had to execute this 30-minute opman plan to Makati for an interview with Monde-Nissin and head the SOM Games 2010 Bowling Night. It was hella fun with all the SOM people and faculty, pizza, beer buckets and unlimited bowling for 2 full hours. I didn't know they turn bowling alleys into party places come 10pm on a Friday night. Hahaha. :)

Okay that's it for now. I don't exactly know how to give full accounts of all the crazy things that have happened so I just used photos instead. In a couple of days it'll be Valentine's Day. But Ojie and I don't have much of a plan considering the deadlines that I have next week except for a Japanese buffet and movie date with our fave couple Kev and Trini. :) There goes the weekend! <3 It'll be the very first time that I'm celebrating V-day with someone so I hope all goes well. Hahahaha.

Since I've reached my time limit, I shall move on to working on papers and researching for Brandstorm. I will do my best to post more entries now. Weeee :)