Gloomy.

It's been exactly 3 hours after we've finished our mock defense in Marketing. Now I'm sitting here like a duck (doing my Philo paper on Les Miserables) with Bonbelle (Pepsi poweeer! ;p) in a deserted classroom waiting for our consultation, with a potential gagging feat after finding out what our labor of love the whole day yesterday has brought us.

And now the dreaded next week. Papers, deadlines, more final defenses galore. :| I could just imagine it. The week after that is no different, more reviewing and then final exams. Then we are all set for freedom.

This space has been quite empty for quite some time now, much to my dismay. Even my multiply has been barren of albums. :| I swear it's just so disengaging. :( Thank God our dsl has been installed again. (Screw you PLDT people, if I were you I'd run for it.) So tonight after this brief modeling thing in Alchemy [HAHAHA. I know. Side note, this is all Reg's idea. I don't even know how she convinced me to come] I might as well enjoy the whole day tomorrow and REST.

I promise, I will get back to work soon. :) I'm gonna continue my disrupted One Tree Hill first. ;p

Ultrasound.

DISCLAIMER: Things can get nasty.

Yesterday was one of the most tiring yet most fun day of my life. Aside from spending the entirety of it with my mom, I got to bond with both my parents somewhere other than home. Though I would like to skip some parts of it, those were the particular stuff that made the day rather eventful.

My day started in Medical City, in Starbucks where I actually convinced my mom to drink coffee with me (well okay, not quite. She wasn't allowed to take in anything because she was about to have her checkup so she watched my gulp down my Caramel Macchiato instead) and then a flood of unwelcome (at first) information was brought up concerning family, family and more family. All I could say is, someone HAS GOT TO PAY.

It could be you. *evil laugh*

After which I proceeded to the reason why I was there in the first place - to have my check up because I haven't had my period for a whopping 5 months. (YES I KNOW.) But don't worry. If I were pregnant, I wouldn't have the guts to even go see a doctor - with my mom. So you know I'm not doing anything bad and dirty. I was just worried about having to manifest the wrong signs: weight gain, break outs, PMS and overly unstable emotions - all supposedly pointing to the regular mentrual cycle but without the red stuff? Perhaps it's the imbalanced hormones at the very least. But I don't know for sure.

That's why I decided to consult with an Ob-Gyne. The funny thing was that after her short interrogation, I was supposed to be examined via transrectal ultrasound. Now I know it sounds fairly innocent especially if you're as ignorant as me but can I just say that I've never experienced something more unpleasant or horrid as that?! Never mind the oggling middle-aged pregnant women who were there thinking like I was some kind of naughty kid who was about to have an unwanted pregnancy. There was so much more than what I expected.

Okay so I had to wear a gown (hahaha, notice how I managed to take a wacky picture inside the bathroom.), take off my pants and proceed to this semi-freaky room full of gossiping [Ateneo] interns and pretty female doctors (THANK GOOODNESS). And then I had to lie down, take my underwear off and BAM. Show them my treasure box. WOOOOOOT. Not only that, my lying position didn't make things any better since I looked like I was actually about to give birth (with bright lights underneath and sheets covering my legs which did little to conceal the extreme exposure).

AACK. So fashion. :))

AND THEN. The intern asked me: Is it your first time? At the back of my mind I thought, Of course bitch it's my first time. Hahahaha. Why else would I act so nervous and freaked out?

Then she smiled and said, Don't worry. We do this to even to kids all the time.

RIIIIGHT.

Fo shizzle. Now let's get this over with.

True enough, I saw the device that they were to stick up in my a**. It looked like a ****s, only slimmer and longer complete with a rubber that very much resembled a condom and a lube to help it slip through.

BOY. Those were the longest 5 minutes of my life. It felt kinda painful particularly cos I could feel the doctor twisting the thing in order to get a clearer view of my system. I could just care less for whatever they saw in there as long as they pull it out and just finish it. GAAAAAHHH.

So anyway. I'm getting the results next week. I hope it's nothing serious - just pills to help me lose weight and maintain a clearer skin. I know even if it's a bad thing to have an irregular period, I will reap the benefits of drinking birth control afterwards. On the other hand, if it requires going under the knife (which I haven't experienced EVER), then...

HOMY. :(( Please pray for me.

More to the day. :) The more fun part was having lunch with my mom and dad at my dad's office in Meralco. He treated us to Substation, this newly built restaurant beside their canteen. Food was quite good. And then after that my mom went with me to Galle to help me buy shoes but to no avail! Service was bad in that mall! Whatever happened to it?

Then we headed to SEC (Securities and Exchange Commission) to get financials for my Marketing group. Went back to Meralco afterwards and grabbed buffet dinner in Megamall because we had to wait until coding was over.

I grew up watching these gigantic fish in the pond in Meralco. :)

Then my Thai neighbor threw a party.

Imagine the tons of food I was ablet to chug in one day. :)

WAAAW. So that's it. I should go back to my paperS now. <3>

I can smell a bonfire.

Oh baliktad pa yung clapper. It's supposed to be: Impossible is Nothing. :))

You know I could just smell it.

THANK GOD MY FOOKIN' Thursday presentation got canceled. :)

Blitzkrieg.

Out of sheer boredom and awe, I developed a liking for taking pictures of my favorite part of the day: Twilight.

The only reason why I'm doing this despite my usual cramming-session-because-I-fell-asleep-again -last-night is the due to the consolation that I will definitely feel after I compose this entry. It's been what? Two whole weeks and I have gone that long without writing even a brief narrative of my ultimately complicated life.

DUHUH.

After weeks of no sleep, n sticks of cigarettes, n amount of expenses, tons of foooooood and, a weird event and tons of other stuff. It's quite surprising how words seem to fail me as I type certain entries and it's been days since this last one's been saved in drafts.

Now let's make pit stops and take note of the finer, more memorable things.

1. HECTIC schedule - still underway. Since it started some weeks ago when I was plagued by consecutive deadlines and tests, it hasn't stopped yet and will, in fact, continue to move up to the last stretch of the final week. There's a big chance for me to retain this state of weariness (though you couldn't exactly call it that the past days) until I'm actually sure about my grades and standings. Considering the spill of events last summer, I think I'd rather not set my expectations high this time, but should, at the very least, pass all of my required stuff so I don't go begging for my course again.

Sneak peak.

b. Events to remember - Happy to say that all of the toiling, unhappy, smocket-ful and sleepless nights with Aggiedor paid off. I sooooo lalalaloved the party (and all the things in between and supposedly AFTER), the GK build and the closing ceremonies - all of which I tried to squeeze in my academically uptight schedule.

Congratulations to the whole team.

c. Physical and emotional distress - yesterday I was feeling queasy during my POS class. It was after I smoked a stick and rushed to class because I thought I was running late. During the activity where I had to struggle for the apt allocation of power with Aids and Wesley (I was supposed to be the middle playing Britain), I felt a sudden lurch in my stomach and immediately felt the urge to run to the nearest bathroom. Which of course I did. After seeing the remains of my pesto pasta lunch, I decided not to attend class anymore, to eat on time and... to stop smoking at that. :))

Emotional? Well. I don't know. I guess it's a bad case of... this rerun which keeps on playing in my head when I actually thought the DVD was already jammed and would not play again ever. But then I was SO SO SO wrong. Because something in the past actually came up to me again with more intensity. I don't want to commit the mistake of thinking too much about it like the last time but I couldn't help but feel the same feelings that I had for that person. :| OHFLEASE.

d. Pending things. - Well a lot are. 'Specially the photos of my adventures for the past whole month. It's just so weird that the semester's coming to a close already and I'm halfway through Junior year in less than 3 weeks. You could just imagine the number of albums I haven't been able to publish due to lack of time and lost of interest. Hahaha. I don't have anyone to report to anyway.

e. Breaking Dawn - is the only book I haven't read since I started the Twilight mania. I've tried my best to keep it moderate and still accomplish tasks whenever I grab a book. Though success was fairly
minimal, well... Whatever.

LOVE.

WOHOO.
There's still a lot that I want to write about but I've already forgotten about them at this point.

A couple of things to look forward to:
a. UAAP championship!
b. SHOPPING
c. FINALS
d. SEM BREAK

I desperately need time alone.

Because I've been spending too much time distracted lately, balancing offhand chores and don'ts, I think it would be better if I actually accomplish as much as I set for myself.

So wait. Later. :)

Towards the end.

I'd like to see where all of this would take me please. :(

Twist and turn.

Thanks to lack of sleep, I can feel my eyelids starting to droop and my speech starting so slur. I have a dry run for an event in a matter of minutes, a test on the Magna Carta in the next few hours and a joint session until late in the evening tonight. AND I DON'T CARE. My morning was too crazy a pitfall to get the day started right.

Imagine this. I stayed up all night just so I could finish the first part of my theo orals (of course, since I wasn't able to study due to my POS midterm exam). Then I firmly decided on cutting my CS lab class (even after a case of bad midterm grades) just so I could finish the rest, as I saw no available slot to squeeze in any study time in between my afternoon meetings and assemblies.

AND THEN. Halfway through the first period of my CS class, I found out that we had to submit a graded database exercise. :((

WORSE. My class and orals both got canceled.

SO. I ended up in the library crying my poor heart out. :'|

UNTIL. I found my friends who, of course never fails, cheered me up. :)

Now I'm staring at what was seemingly a potentially draggy day. A bit better than what I expected though I could have used the sleep.

And now off I go. Duty calls. :)

Just one more.

Why hello there. <3
(My POS 100 readings for my midterms - yes, all three. Just one subject. Just one test.)

Okay so the worstS may be over. I cannot begin to describe how much of a hell this week has been. I've been running around school (even reached Taguig at one point last Wednesday) in order to complete the madness. I may not know the grades I have garnered throughout the entire adventure but it's sure as hell relieving that the week is coming to an end.

This weekend has its own complications due to the lack of definite plans but I don't care. I JUST WANT THIS OVER WITH. I may not have tickets to any single event but I do have money to pay the scalper. Hahaha. :))

So I'm currently taking a break from my tedious oral reviewing spree. My right hand is trembling after 7 index cards and a thick height of binder pages I've managed to flipped through. OHTHELIFE.

Checklist:
a. Philo Orals - not so bad.
b. CS defense - nailed it.
c. CS midterm - GROAN.
d. POS midterm - haha. All that reading for nothing.
e. Theo Orals and quiz on Canon Law - one last. :)

Please please please. I'd be more than glad to call on the weekend: update my online accounts, do more stuff, party, buy clothes, shoes and NEW MOON! :D *tears of joy*

Just this week.

Not even halfway into the week and I'm already turning into a madman. No. Seriously. :)) But whatever. I've been a ranting raging machine for the past two days and it's getting tiresome already. Mental note: save up for Friday - you are so having a massage. <3

And then the weekend which is pretty much packed too.

And then next week. :)

Just this one thing worth sharing that made me really happy today. :D

2 September 2008

Daryll M. Santillan

III BS CTM

Dear Daryll,

Congratulations! You are one of the participants chosen to take part in the 7^th Ateneo Student Leaders Assembly.

Once again, we would like to thank you for having chosen to apply for ASLA Batch 7. We know how tedious it was to fill up the long application form and to go through the panel interview. We commend your efforts in stepping up to apply as a leadership act in itself, and we hope you do too.

After weeks of deliberating through 60 applicants, we in the ASLA Core would like to welcome you into the ASLA family. Congratulations! You are now a part of ASLA Batch 7!

To personally congratulate and welcome you, we would like to invite you to our Welcoming Assembly on September 19, 2008, which will be held at the MVP Basement from 5:30pm – 7:30pm. Here you will meet your fellow batch mates, and we in the ASLA Core will finally have a chance to meet you. We will be giving you additional reminders about the Congress, so it is important for you to come. Your attendance in this assembly will also confirm your participation for the ASLA Congress.

Should you be unable to attend the Assembly because of an academic commitment, please let our Secretariat Team know on or before September 8, 2008 by sending an excuse letter to asla.secretariat@gmail.com. Only those with valid reasons will be excused from the Assembly.

Once again, Congratulations and we hope to see you soon! God bless!

Sincerely Yours,

Margarita Patricia R. Valdes

Program Director, ASLA 2008-2009

Joseph Anthony M. Quesada

Program Adviser

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Secretariat and Alumni Relations Team
Ateneo Student Leaders Assembly
asla.secretariat@gmail.com
http://www.aslaonline.net