Because we are such fans, oh let us oh so make this work. - HUH? Sabaw. ;p
I have now proven that some people are just plain stupid. How and why? Well let me tell you how and why.
I have now proven that some people are just plain stupid. How and why? Well let me tell you how and why.
You were together for a year and a half - with everything supposedly having started from a 'test fling thing'. (Wow. See how I've almost mastered the art of getting used to saying that word.) And then it works, for quite some time, everything just seem to have found its way to actually be magically blissful. Forever was the only option that the two of you were willing to accept, nothing beyond that. But of course like every first 'real' relationship is designed to function, things just suddenly go berserk that they end getting screwed up. Well for the most part he was the goon in what you thought was the perfect match. He wanted something else that you, yourself wasn't ready to give. He wanted out, while you wanted to hold on and fix it. He wanted his freedom to go on and explore the possibility of new things (err, girls) and to pursue his self-vested interests (err, drugs and vices) that were slowly starting to crystallize a bit after the onset of the relationship - the same things which you fought so hard to happen precisely because you cared for nothing but his happiness and well-being.
And so you end up crying those lonely months of trying to get over your first real love. All those self-help books, the excuses to party and getting stranded in a crowded room of unfamiliar people, the times you ranted with your girlfriends and all the energy you put in trying to forget the pain away. Eventually after what seemed eternity, you finally reach the point when you realize that getting stuck in the rut just won't do you any good. And then you decide to stand up and live life again.
Yet unfortunate still, you become burnt out because of what happened. The excruciating pain was not that easy to escape from that you were unable to blur the lines between of what was supposed to be allocated to the past and the sense of what you should be doing in the future. You thought you were ready to be in another relationship (aside from getting bored and lonely - you totally had the single thing WRONG). Then you do. However it dawns on you that you weren't really looking for another commitment after all. Maybe you missed the thought of having it, but not really being prepared to give it another shot. So then, major stepback. You go back to zero.
A year has passed and it seemed so vivid how much you wanted to risk for a relationship which genuinely made you happy. But you also know that given the chance, you wouldn't have chosen anything than what you have and what you are now - single and free without having to pour so much time and effort in something you can pass on not doing. Sure there may be guys who pass by (and eventually make you feel bad about wanting them so much - but that's another story) but you just keep and owe it to yourself that you've gone this far why turn back for the sake of having such nonsense? And so you feel so great.
But then he texts you after such a long time - with the obligation to secure the future of his family and all - just to tell you how much he regrets all the things that have happened when you two were falling apart. GAWD. He says I love you and tries to make up for it by offering a negotiation from a far-flung planet. He says that you're not like any girl he's ever met. You were 'the' one. OH PLEASE.
It took him that long to comprehend that? How original. The price you definitely have to pay for thinking that you can do whatever you want with a girl's heart. This is what happens when you don't think, when you don't feel. AH EWAN. So sorry. I'm sorry that you're that stupid and it took you so long to process the what ifs and what could have beens. And now it's ultimately late. ASA BOY. Pentium 1 ka pa rin, Dual Core Centrino na ko. (Or whatever, just read that off from my lappy.) HAHAHA.
ANYWAY. I was such a great friend today and I feel so good for having time to make other people happy.
I love you Nie. :) Thank you for spending time with me in Starbucks, on a lazy daisy afternoon, talking about the most random stuff and complaining about not being able to go out and party tonight. (Sayang Embassy. Buti na lang sinarado. HAHAHA) I could sure use the sleep and study time. We shall make up for this soon. For now, woooork and fun are all we have. KILIG ako sa stories mo, perhaps you should give the guy a chance. Ang sweet niya swear.
I love you Tep and Flip. True to what I said, I'd do anything to save your relationship because I know how much you love each other. And believe me, (and out of sheer wit and sophistication. HAHAHA) I understand where you're both coming from. Breaking up is never a solution to a fight unless you guys are amenable to the fact that you both aren't growing up in the commitment. Or something like that. I'm just here you guys.
Today is rather uneventful and tiring, but pleasing as much. Tomorrow, I promise to start those POS100 papers and read the readings as well as STUDY and shop for my Garfield cds.
Plus make time for a salon appointment and possibly shop and then WORK. WHEW. Parang ang dami yata. OH well.
Love it.<3
And so you end up crying those lonely months of trying to get over your first real love. All those self-help books, the excuses to party and getting stranded in a crowded room of unfamiliar people, the times you ranted with your girlfriends and all the energy you put in trying to forget the pain away. Eventually after what seemed eternity, you finally reach the point when you realize that getting stuck in the rut just won't do you any good. And then you decide to stand up and live life again.
Yet unfortunate still, you become burnt out because of what happened. The excruciating pain was not that easy to escape from that you were unable to blur the lines between of what was supposed to be allocated to the past and the sense of what you should be doing in the future. You thought you were ready to be in another relationship (aside from getting bored and lonely - you totally had the single thing WRONG). Then you do. However it dawns on you that you weren't really looking for another commitment after all. Maybe you missed the thought of having it, but not really being prepared to give it another shot. So then, major stepback. You go back to zero.
A year has passed and it seemed so vivid how much you wanted to risk for a relationship which genuinely made you happy. But you also know that given the chance, you wouldn't have chosen anything than what you have and what you are now - single and free without having to pour so much time and effort in something you can pass on not doing. Sure there may be guys who pass by (and eventually make you feel bad about wanting them so much - but that's another story) but you just keep and owe it to yourself that you've gone this far why turn back for the sake of having such nonsense? And so you feel so great.
But then he texts you after such a long time - with the obligation to secure the future of his family and all - just to tell you how much he regrets all the things that have happened when you two were falling apart. GAWD. He says I love you and tries to make up for it by offering a negotiation from a far-flung planet. He says that you're not like any girl he's ever met. You were 'the' one. OH PLEASE.
It took him that long to comprehend that? How original. The price you definitely have to pay for thinking that you can do whatever you want with a girl's heart. This is what happens when you don't think, when you don't feel. AH EWAN. So sorry. I'm sorry that you're that stupid and it took you so long to process the what ifs and what could have beens. And now it's ultimately late. ASA BOY. Pentium 1 ka pa rin, Dual Core Centrino na ko. (Or whatever, just read that off from my lappy.) HAHAHA.
ANYWAY. I was such a great friend today and I feel so good for having time to make other people happy.
I love you Nie. :) Thank you for spending time with me in Starbucks, on a lazy daisy afternoon, talking about the most random stuff and complaining about not being able to go out and party tonight. (Sayang Embassy. Buti na lang sinarado. HAHAHA) I could sure use the sleep and study time. We shall make up for this soon. For now, woooork and fun are all we have. KILIG ako sa stories mo, perhaps you should give the guy a chance. Ang sweet niya swear.
I love you Tep and Flip. True to what I said, I'd do anything to save your relationship because I know how much you love each other. And believe me, (and out of sheer wit and sophistication. HAHAHA) I understand where you're both coming from. Breaking up is never a solution to a fight unless you guys are amenable to the fact that you both aren't growing up in the commitment. Or something like that. I'm just here you guys.
Today is rather uneventful and tiring, but pleasing as much. Tomorrow, I promise to start those POS100 papers and read the readings as well as STUDY and shop for my Garfield cds.
Plus make time for a salon appointment and possibly shop and then WORK. WHEW. Parang ang dami yata. OH well.
Love it.<3
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