Because we are supah fly.

Smile and pout for everyone to see.

Thanks for exposing how under dressed I am.

I'm currently hanging out here in school. Wala lang. Later na. Have to do homework. Bye2.

[EDIT] November 30, 2006

Hello there. I'm curently hanging out here at home because school is out. Apparently, a super typhoon has entered the country and is due to hit Manila at around 8 am tomorrow (if my memory serves me right).

Yeah. I haven't really done so much lately. Aside from the fact that school life is still mundane, the December chills are giving me allergies and that I talk to some of his friends now, nothing's to be happy about so far. Maybe, some things are to look forward to. But then again... I have no idea.

I asked my dad to buy me the book: Veronika Decides to Die by Paolo Coelho and I'm really excited to cuddle up and read it, with a steaming cup of coffee or noodle soup and a bag of nachos and salsa dip beside me. Oohh lala.

And oh, I got something I really wanted for so long yesterday. John and I had our henna tattooes courtesy of the ACTM henna booth at Sec B. Coolness. The image? Number 23 lang naman. Something to remember him by for the next two weeks. So far, my usual rants concern the same things. Perhaps, things have been downright easier now that I have been able to revamp almost everything in my life (an obvious sign that I am moving on) and just you know, going with the flow.

I'm loving it, for what everything's worth.:) Basta. Just keep doing this and I'll eventually come through. At least I'm somewhat happy.

Love is not love which alters when in alteration finds, when life gets hard and things change, true love remains the same.

The Association of Communications Technology Management presents:

Okay. This is weird and rather unfortunate. Something went wrong with the admin's connection so the whole RMT comp. Lab is unable to have access to the internet. Oooh. I was planning to do some nasty things pa naman. Kidding.

I was surprised to see one of my 'hottest' batch mates here. I was supposed to stay in the terminal somewhere there to get a good view but then due to this inconvenience, the good view has turned into a picturesque scene of the back of his head. Hahaha. So much for that. I want to blog really bad that I'm typing this entry in MS Word and I'm going to save it in my flash disk. I am quite wondering who else have arrived since I left the caf some minutes ago. I could always use the walk but no one's willing to walk with me. (Someone's dozing off while waiting for the net to connect) Sheesh. I need to do some research right now!!!

The usual. I am in my school career mode because I don't have any other choice but to keep myself busy. Yeah it sucks when the last song that plays in your head is Out of Reach by Gabrielle. It's like admitting to yourself that you're such a fool for letting all of him get into you and take everything, that in the end, you feel so hurt and empty. Okay. Ito na naman tayo sa walang katapusang drama. I'm sorry. No one can blame me. I'm hurting so back off! No amount of Caramel Macchiato, vanilla ice cream or Coffee Crunch can take the pain away. Not even a rocking party, a sleepover, an extreme sport or some guy. – I guess it's just him.

Speaking of a rocking party, last Saturday was the twins' debut – Jean and Jermaine. I was up in the morning to go shopping with my parents so that I could buy stuff and gifts. I decided to really (Oooopssss. Jiggy and Ana just walked in…) have myself predisposed (Oooooppsss Dani just walked in. – Idol debater) to start my life anew and just move on. So what I did was to shop for a lot of stuff for myself. Food, cosmetics, food, food and a lot more food. Coolness. Anyway, I arrived at the party looking all glammed up but the 18 roses was already starting. Ayus lang. At least the eating part was yet to happen so I content myself in chatting with my HS friends (I sooooo missed them) and as usual, taking pictures with weird poses. (Pics at my multiply, soon.) Then the party ended at like 12 and a lot happened in between. It was fun and tiring because I wore my killer heels – yeah, same ones I wore at his prom. The dancing part was kinda lame because most of the guys stood there and some people attempted to partner us with everybody else but then not a lot was interested to even stand up. Plus the music was freakishly weird so we (Mita and I) were the only ones who got the groove on.

And then yesterday. How could I even start describing the grand finale of my wretched love life? – Started as early as May 2005. Oh well. I was at Greenhills in the early part of the morning because I was supposed to get a new fone. There were a few negotiations with my parents and I thought that I didn’t really want to let go of my old one so I agreed to wait until they can get me a new one without trading my old one in. (Still no connection!!!) and then he texted me in the afternoon and stuff.

We talked as I wanted it to happen. I was waiting for him to get his stuff because I really really wanted to see him personally before I finally convinced myself to let go. So we did. I missed everything about him. It's as if we haven’t seen each other for a long time. Then I asked him to just stay away from me so that it could be perhaps easier to move on. But no! I just couldn’t do it! Or so I thought. I had to find out some other stuff which proved my instincts right. There are other girls lurking around and celebrating his momentous freedom. Ewan basta. Karma – what goes around comes around. What goes up must come down. Yihee. Bitterness.

Whatever. I don't really care about them. For all I know I did my best and I gave him everything – the tad bit where I went wrong. I just had to be the most loving girl that I didn't leave anything for myself. Basta for now, life's definitely not going to end here. Ano ako loser? No. dati kasi ako pa yung matapang. But I knew better and he didn't. sorry nalang.

I even saw a falling star while we were parting ways. Ang sad because he made me wish for something. All I can say was, "Ayoko. I don’t believe that my wish will come true. Nagwish na ko dati diba? If wishing upon falling stars come true then why are you leaving me now?" – Awww.

Okay. So for the last part, I won't really vent out remorse or contempt for what happened. Tama nga si Bhi. If we're meant, then love will find a way. Maybe not now but in the near future. If not, then I guess he's not the one for me. I just have to be thankful that he was once a part of my life. Besides, we agreed to be friends. And oh, I'll be holding on to the promise of watching the fireworks display on the 20th of December. – Pinky swear? Yeah. He did commit to that.

I love him. I guess it'll never die. But moving on and letting go mean acceptance at the very least. Easier said than done. But I'll be fine. Basta hindi kami bitter. Who knows right? We always always find ways to make things better.:) Pray nalang siguro I guess.

So, honey, I’m sorry and thanks for everything. The past year has been wonderful because I got to share it with you. I’ll always be here. You know that. Be strong. Kaya natin ‘to. Goodbye.

I'm doing just fine. - Very pretentious.

Well, what can I say? This week had its own share of ups and downs - mostly ups because I had to run away from facing a pitfall.

As I was trying to accept the fact that I really have to let go, I have started taking school very seriously (Wahaha:)) and I believe that I'm doing pretty well right now. Hmmm. Things to take note of:

1. Bazaars - I just heart them. ~ Much of my anxieties were kinda forgotten because there were bazaars in school and the girls and I (include the boys) spent most of our break times scouting for things to shop for (with Laine being the sole soooper impulsive buyer) and eating stuff available at the stalls. The Sec field bazaar was the one which we got to hang out longer in because we only went to the Eagles of Hope Bazaar this morning. Although the latter offered more variety in terms of commodities and food, I say thumbs up to both bazaars. You just make life good for people who have money and for those who are in search of good bargains. Hahaha:)

2. School rocks. ~ I loved Lit this morning. In fact, I'm loving Lit everyday. Hahaha:) Poetry or anything related to love and whatnot just adds spice to my flavorless errr... Lovelife? Hahaha. Basta. It's giving me a grasp on how to lessen the burden that I'm feeling right now. I also had my first ADS training for this sem awhile ago. Vernice was my partner and we seemed to have agreed on one thing as we prepped for the debate: we are becoming frustrated debaters. I mean, we can never become as good as those internationally acclaimed debaters and we have no capacity to improve our skills a notch higher. But like she said, we just have to train, train, train, train... We were up against: Jamina Jugo, Claude Gomez and Paolo Salapantan. It was fairly good considering that we lacked matter on what the WTO really does and how it functions on the modern-day context. Glenn was ever so kind in giving his comments about me and I was kinda relieved when he said that from the last time that he has seen me debate, I have greatly improved. But come to think of it, I was sucky kanina. So does that mean that I was that bad before???:( Hahahaha. Oh well. Math 19 is just really great. We were given our first passport test (a.k.a. quiz) this afternoon and there is no way that Cort and I would not get an A in it. It was easy and fun considering that we were just battling against time while we solved simple derivative equations and connected the dots to form the Playboy logo. Come now. Some of us didn't solve it entirely when they realized that the picture was to be a rabbit wearing a bowtie.:D

3. Shopping and party time again. ~ I cannot wait to see my friends again. Tomorrow's the twins' debut at the Club Pavilion somewhere in multi. I just have to firgure out what to wear, buy a gift and make myself pretty then I'm all set. I also can't wait to get a new fone. The one I'm using now is like trash! Arrrgh. If things will remain as they are (given more or less a week) I have decided to switch to Globe and keep my Sun line open if in case you know.

What else? I'm kinda tired now. I have to rest. Tata!:)

Not an emo girl. - you made me stronger by breaking my heart.

It's been quite long since I have updated this. (3 days is a long time) For the past few weeks, I have been quite religious in jotting down my thoughts and feelings but now, I have yet to fill this in with a tragic and life-changing experience.

Maybe it is indeed time that I move on. It's a bit surprising that I'm not the usual on-the-verge-of-a-breakdown chick now that we have finally broken up. I stressed finally because we have done this a couple, no not really a couple but a lot of times already (but we still held on). When we do, I just can't help but feel like everything's falling apart and I become sluggish, grumpy and cranky towards almost everyone. However, I have broken that tradition of mine for the past few days. Simply ironic considering that I should be really crushed for it's the very last time that we gave our relationship a chance. I walk around campus with my friends in my usual kulit and perky mood, nearly like everything's normal and nothing has happened.

His love has made me stronger and it doesn't necessarily mean that I have turned cold and numb towards the pain that this 'parting of ways' has brought me. Of course I'm hurt and even if I wear my happy cheer face most of the time, it doesn't imply that I'm not hurting or that I'm walking away that easy. I am hurting, just not on the outside. Plus, I know no amount of tears can never bring him back unless he decides that on his own. But after how we have discussed matters before we finally decided to stop, I found it hard to press any urges of doing drastic means to keep him. He has expressed his utter desire to be free and so I gave him that. I could have handled things differently but then I didn't, because I know that I would only be fooling and hurting myself if he stays but then remains to be unhappy. Whatever. I'm not really sure why we have flaked out like this. I didn't have the guts to grasp all the unexplainable reasons.

Today is the 23rd and supposedly our 17th month of love. (He texted me this morning and I have no plans of replying or of reminding him of my existence.) But it had to end so soon.

I'm not sorry for myself and for everything that had happened. Maybe not now. Wait until next week. Hahaha=p Basta. I just know that there's a lot to do to continue any rubbish attempts of flushing all of the pain, anger and loneliness out.

This week has just been crazy. School is cool. I miss lib-ing and matteo-ing. There isn't much work to do so I guess I don't really have to stay and hibernate there.

It's also my mom's birthday today so we have our family dinner later. Yeah. I told myself that I will do everything in my power to be busy, lo and behold, my schedule just agreed with me.

I heart myself from now on.

I'm no turning emo - the girl who cries emo tears until she falls asleep, takes out memorabilias and admires all the things that used to be, refuses to let go and face the harsh reality and just starts malfunctioning in every aspect of her life. But I do cry, as justified by the fact that when I walked towards the block table in the caf this morning, Niko asked:

Niko: Ilang hours kang umiyak last night?
Da: Seriously, do I look that bad?

Hahahaha=D

Sige na. Math test tomorrow. Bye.:)

So don't you ever get to thinkin' you're irreplaceable.

People suddenly run away and disappear without saying goodbye and leaving any reason. No matter how hard you look, no matter how far you are willing to run after them, you never seem to catch up. Until one day, you get tired and you give up. People run away and have their own reasons for doing so, and when they do, they don't want to be found unless they think they are ready to come back and stick to their promise of not hurting you, again.

If you open my accounts (my ym stat, multiply and friendster), you will get to see the statement which I chose to be the title for this post. I don't know. I just happen to like the song because of its beat and meaning. But I don't really intend to make it as a banner for how I am feeling right now in order to come after people who I want to feel the pang of guilt upon hearing this. I think I never will. Well, basically because I'm not that type of girl and I right now, this therapeutic thing called blogging is one of the few things keeping me insane.

(One Tree Hill Soundtrack in the Background)

I was like a human bee last night. I cried really hard like I have never cried before. I was hurt like I was never hurt before and for some reason, I liked it. Not that I would treat it as the sole thing in gauging the status of our relationship right now. Messed up is kind of an understatement. After two weeks of being treated like a princess, I sort of forgot the feeling of having to go through this tragic moment. I may need some time to regain my sense of strength.

And it's as if I can already tell that perhaps, I never will be free of this love that has long captivated my existence. Even if I try to break free from it, I will never ever have the guts to walk away. I have no idea why and it's making me scared. I'm not scared of being alone. I just fear life without him.

:(

Love is the guiding force in our lives. - Lucas

I have decided to make this a second entry instead of making a third part edit in my first one. Wala lang. I wanted to put the title because I really feeeeeeel its intensity.

So it turns out that he just slept through the day and I do trust the fact that he may be sick like me. Although I have acknowledged that, I still don't like how he hasn't texted or called or how he even told me to "Pwede mamaya ka na tumawag?" and just casually hung up the phone. Ohh man. As much as I don't want to deny the fact that there is an innate goodness in the heart of even the most evil of man, he just proves it otherwise.

Sitting around and watching One Tree Hill does make one think. Maybe things are bound to be crappy after all and no matter how much you make things better, when the stars refuse to conspire and help you get the life that you need, then it's not gonna work. Sooner or later, you have to give up on that notion of happy ending. On the other hand, it's your mind that can you screw you up. When you think to much and disregard your heart in the process, then feelings get agitated and everything else becomes tedious.

Ultimately pissed off.

So here I am today, a balmy and slightly chilly afternoon spending quality time with myself all alone in the house. I have no idea what's happening right now. Or better yet, what happened to me last night after our funscapade at Eastwood.

Well, for what everything was worth, yesterday was really fun. Right after our Fil class, we headed to Eastwood to have our late lunch. We had to ride in John's car beause I had to tell some bits of gossip to Laine and John had to give an account of his overrated breakdown due to heartache. John even said that he now knows how Niko feels to be one of the girls - he never had that much noise in his car before we rode in it. Hahaha=D

When we reached the place and were already enumerating the list of things that we wanted to shop, Laine was appalled when she realized that she left her wallet. Of course, it meant trouble because everything from her credit cards to her driver's license were there and if she did lose it, she'll be dead. Good thing she asked her maids and her driver and it was found in their van so she just borrowed money from Niko. So everything was okay then.

We ate a hell lot at Superbowl of China. (We joked about having to leave after two servings of Kropek) And then after walking around, windowshopping and seeing fellow Ateneans like Sari, Pao, the gang of Justin Manzano and Ria's and my blockmates, we went to the moviehouse to watch Casino Royale.

Honestly, I was purely reluctant before watching the movie because it isn't really my kind of thing. But I thought, what the heck. I don't pretty much have a choice anyway. So then after the movie, (which was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long) I thought it was okay.ü Well, actually it was good. It had comedy, romance (it was soo sad) and a lot of action. Good job.

After that, we just went home because we were running pretty late then. John was the only one who was having a night out and the rest of us had to go home.

Today is just an idle day. For some reason last night, I had an unexpected fever so I crashed onto my bed because I felt really bad. (My parents panicked and offered to bring me to the hospital) The last thing I remember was talking to hon but I was feeling dizzy at that time and I'm not really sure if we had a decent conversation or not. Hmmm. And now, everything's just messed up. Wish me luck.

[EDIT] I'm not ready to sign out yet. I still have tons to write about. Well... Yeah partly because I was snooping at other people's blogs and it was kinda fun. Hahaha=p I read *toot*'s blog and her blog blahblahblah. I was even reading my 'kiddo' blog at My Space yesterday morning.

Oo nga pala. I wanted to die of happiness because of a remarkable thing that happened yesterday. Ooooh gawd. I think it would have been better if I found out that I got a 96 in my last paper in Lit 13 before the sem break started. I could have used the added motivation to face Poetry and Drama class. But then again, waaaaah!!! I feel soooooo encouraged and sooooo confident with myself right now! This sem's career mode biatch!=p

Speaking of career mode, I was bugging Laine and Ria to join me in executing my plans for the ACTM yearend party. I'm included in the not-so-active members cards last sem and I wouldn't want to continue it for the remainder of the year. I really am not used to being the 'member'-member in my org so I decided that I'd do stuff to end it. Sher asked me if I could join this contest - dance contest in ACTM (after which if I win I get to auction off the hottest bachelors in Ateneo. Included in the list are Jai Reyes, Chris Tiu and JC Intal). Though the plan's not sure yet, (my options are a dance contest or a stand-up comedy showdown -- I pleaded that they pull me out if it's the latter) I said yes. So the event's at Absinthe at Greenbelt on December 8. Wooohoooo.:)

Doing just fine.

After a day's hard work and a one mile run around Ateneo (start: covered courts; end: gate 3 post) I feel pretty tired and all. Woohoo. I am so back to school right now. My hang-over from the break has finally shaken off. I'm so looking forward to the next break even if I was crushed when I found out that it's gonna be for two short weeks only. Oh well, I'm looking forward to a lot of things right now aside from school work and stuff. There are birthday celebrations everywhere especially in my family and of course, our 17th month.

So, I still have a lot of readings for Fil tomorrow and some other stuff to do. The gang and I (except Laine I think) are going to hang out in Eastwood because our classes are suspended in the afternoon (Yeeey! No Calc class) and that technically means that my last class ends at 12:30. Plus, we are going to perform some drastic measures for our dear John, who unfortunately yet figuratively lost his life just this morning. I think the guy's severely damaged but hey, tomorrow's gonna be fun with us, I hope.

So study mode on once again. I think my dad's here already. Adios.:)

[EDIT] So I'm actually immoblized right now and the pile of readings that I have to digest within tonight and tomorrow morning is right beside me. It was a bad timing for him to visit me. Arrrgh. Oh what the heck. I have to go na nga. Bye bye:)

Dirty politics and the absence of the spirit of Christmas make life less fun.

For starters, here's an update of what's happening here in the Philippines.

Gringo Honasan has already been captured and is now staying in the Asian Hospital. He was being tracked down because of his alleged involvement in the year 2000 Oakwood mutiny. He is currently facing a lot of charges because his flee disproved his innocence. I kinda feel sad for him most especially the way he had to escape and run for his life just so he could get away from the claws of the police. Apparently, his efforst were to no avail because he's gonna end up in jail all the same.

Meanwhile, Atong Ang has also been sent to the QC jail. He's a known ally of the people in Erap's administration and is now facing charges concerning plunder if he remains to be against the government. The truth is, he's been receiving threats against his life and his family if he does not side with the government and turn his back from his allies.

Sigh. I kinda have to agree with my mom that this is one of the reasons why people haven't really started putting up Christmas lights yet. I mean, with a governement like this? Well, the spirit's getting all crappy.

I am really looking forward to this season and I'm starting to get busy with all my school work (kinda non-existent, pretty much pretending to be hectic=D Kidding. I am indulging in a reasonable amount of school work now)

Hon and I went on a not-so-date-ish date. We just walked around and I bumped into Riezl (my long-lost ate in SPCP, sophomore year) and she started cursing and complimenting me. I really missed her! Basta! Hahahaha:)


What else? Well, today was not really anything. I am unusually enjoying my class every day (yes, even my Eng class). And we even shared a table with some Seniors this morning.

Ayun. Sige. Gotta work before I get really sleepy.

Blissful.

It's an unusually happy and perky day today. Well actually, I'm beginning to think everyday is that kind of day. -- and it's a good thing.

Okay, enough with using day a lot of times in two sentences. Urrrgh, inasmuch as it's a happy 'day', I am beginning to tire myself out because of the little adventures that we do around campus and all the walking that they entail. We had to go back and forth to class, to Katip and to a lot of different places to get books and stuff. Plus, the sun's heat didn't make the walkathon experience any better. It made it elaborately tiring and annoying. But hey, no big.

I forgot to eat lunch because Calc class was at lunch today and it lasted for an hour and thirty minutes(hafto get used to it every freakin' day). The 'tropa' (or at least what I call them now because we pretty much hang out everytime) and I together with our darling Bea had brunch at Mcdo after our break this morning. We did the usual things: the emo talks, the bashing and all the trivial girl and guy stuff. After Mcdo, we went to National bookstore to see if we can grab our books because the line in ORP is sooooo damn long, but then we were too late because the stock of the expensive Calc book just ran out. So we had no choice but to fall in line this afternoon. But it wasn't really bad. Mine's almost complete.

After the first two days this semster, the fuse has been lit. I am ever more determined to take my college life to a whole new level. I mean, I know that I can do so much more but yet I settle for the average. I don't have an excuse to be amongst mediocrity because at this point, I should be way past the adjustment stage. I have everything I could ask for as of this moment. My hon's very supportive and I'm no longer the damsel in distress who always has the hard time with the relationship and the professional work because the inevitability of each other's intereference really drives me nuts. We haven't fought that much (only once to be exact) since we got back and I'm glad as ever that he's doing his best to show that he's changed. I'm super super super excited for tomorrow and I really really feel loved. :)

So, with that in mind, I'm going to hit the lib and study for my first quiz in English tomorrow. I'll try if I could sneak in and edit this later.

Cheerios.:)

At long last.

It's 10:37 p.m. and I am so screwed for staying up this late because my class is at 7:30 a.m. tomorrow. Oh well, I fell asleep while waiting for Jiggy to appear in Deal or No deal a couple of hours ago so I guess that makes up for it.

Hon just woke me up and grabe. Can I just say that I was so kilig while he was trying to wake me up? Awww. I feel so loved right now! Nothing can make this day less crappy than my asawa's sweet stuff-ies. Whatev.

Well, the first day of the second sem didn't really suck. I mean, after all, it wasn't that bad. Well, the caf was loaded with people and that's something unusual. I guess the Ateneo community missed a lot of people during the sembreak. (Tama ba yun?) Hahaha.

Aside from my sucky En 12 prof who greeted us with her annoyingly perky "How did your last sem began?" (Now, seriously, how do these people make it as employees in our school?) and me not existing in the Fil 12 class list, nothing's bad so far. I'm actually looking forward to my App. Calc for Bus. class because for the first time in my entire life, I understand the prof! And he's not boring too!ü

To top it all off, can I just say that I'm falling in love with Bethany Joy Lenz' song in OTH Halo? Haaaahaaa. (Thanks to Laine who played it for me in her iPod.) I just downloaded it in Youtube and I've been listening to it nonstop. Oh well, gotta end this. I have to transfer notes pa and talk to Mazinger Z who is in dire need of girl counseling.

Lovin' it. (Although there are some defects in this blog, I'll see what I can do soon.)

Been wanting to do this since dawn this morning.

I officially crown myself as the queen of all couch potatoes. Nothing beats my record of sleeping at like 3 in the morning just sitting around and watching tv and consequently waking up super late the next day.

Hindi talaga ako sanay. Hmmm. Aside from the fact that I stink (because I haven't taken a bath yet) and that I'm a pig (I've been eating a lot because there's pancit and menudo here - I guess there's this birthday bash at our neighbor's house).

People do not usually find me at home during breaks because I either have stuff to do at school or I hang out with my friends. But now, since I practically missed out on IISDC's latest tournament and I wasn't abelt o help ADS although I did volunteer for it during my app period and most of my friends started school a week earlier than me, I didn't have much of a choice but to stay put and make myself a throne as the Queen of all Couch Potatoes.

I wish to continue this later after I finish taking a bath.ü

[EDIT] I'm about to edit this blog's lay-out (finally) because I have now decided to keep this account in blogspot. I was actually thinking of moving to LiveJournal but I changed my mind. I wouldn't want the hassle again. Besides, now I don't have much time to redo a lot of my entries because I'm waiting for a friggin' call. Kanina pa.

Well, muchos kwentos in another time.

Can't stay up late now because tomorrow's the first day of the sem and there's supposedly a new storm to hit the country too.

Cheerios♥

I feel so good.ü

Feeling so damn good.

What happens when you actually stay up until three in the morning just watching tv and being a pig? (think beef noodles and soup, cake and iced coffee)

Well, you pretty much wake up at three in the afternoon. Just like me.ü I can't really blame myself because I usually wake up when I start feeling the heat of the afternoon sun. However, since it's November and it's expected that people feel the chills, then I just go on in deep slumber until late in the afternoon, that is, if I don't get alarmed by something that I have to do because by then, I really have to get up from bed. I looooove this break. It's what? 46 dyas before Christmas? Yeah.ü

This is soooo cool! Well, I still have two days to accomplish my stuff plus the weekend (which I'm not really sure of being vacant because of my sched.) Well, there was this bizaare idea of going to Manila Zoo on Saturday but Crunch texted me and told me that they won't be able to go so that leaves me and Hon. But I guess, I'll suggest that we go to a different place instead. Hahahaü Arrrrgh. I really miss him already. I mean, yeah, we talk a lot now (I'm really suprised with the things that he's doing) but I really miss spending time with him.=( It'll come soon. But I hope it'll be sooner.

Hahahaha. I vow to change this blog's lay-out within today.

Cheerios!!!♥

Filling this.

The title's a bit like punning. Yeah, the psychological term that's supposed to fall under Freud's psychoanalytical uh...(I kinda forgot my HS notes already). Whatever. It has something to do with playing with words in such a way that they become... equivocal.

Okay. So 'filling' this is like 'feeling' this as in the ability of a person to put emotions into practice. It also means 'filling' as in making up for the void and the emptiness that's being felt by a person.

I have no idea why I even thought of that title.

Couch potato-ing.ü

Oh gawd. It's like less than a week before the second semester starts and here I am, doing nothing and not accomplishing anything in my to-do list. (Which includes changing this blog's lay-out)

I woke up at 3 in the afternoon. (Technically, that makes me 1 and a half hours awake at this moment.) Well, I slept at around 3 am and woke up again at 6. I stayed up because Toneth and I talked over the phone until the wee wee hours of the morning about everything, as in everything. Then, when we finally decided to sleep (because her parents were already up), I still had to wake up so that I could talk to hon.

Again, the things I do for him. Hmmm. He's asking me if we could eat at Kuya Tuchie's later. Awwww I guess he misses me already. But then, I can't because I have stuff to do. Stuff which I promised to do this morning but I kept putting it off and now I'm too lazy to do it. I guess I'll just tell him that I can eat out with him tomorrow after I go to school for my reg assessment. Arrrgh. I'm still lazy to wake up and do stuff. Waaaah. I so wish that I'll be exempted from PE. And I do hope that I get a good slot for natsci. Oh well. at least my random number's not as bad as the others'. Hahaha=p Kidding.

Hmmm. Gotta do stuff pa. Till here♥

Drastic changes.

I wish I were always this happy.

I'm kinda forcing myself to blog even if I'm not in the mood because I'm downloading a video in YouTube. So thanks to dial-up, it's going to take quite a while before I can actually finish Rihanna's We Ride. And yeah, the song's getting me all depressed.

It's still early. It's just 9:30 in the evening and someone already slept up on me. (Does that sound right?) Whatever. Okay. I'll do this entry like Hilary Duff did it in the movie "The Perfect Man", like I actually hear myself talk as I type this entry.

The weekend passed by leaving me a great deal of thought. Saturday midnight made my eyes sore again because Hon had his sleepover at Puma's house together with his barkada. It just followed that we didn't get to spend any time together this sembreak except when he helped fix me up before Laine's party. I know, some people would always question why it is so mandatory for people in a relationship to spend time together. I mean, yeah it's not always like that. But the thing is, we miss each other's company and that's like one of the basic things why we're in this commitment in the first place. We just love being with each other. Okay, enough with that talk.

My dad's birthday was a really good day for the family, especially me. After my dad treated us to MoA, (we ate a whole lot and spent a regretful amount on it) I bought new stuff for school such as clothes. Hahaha. Everything to my advantage. My dad was even teasing me by singing the happy birthday song because I got him to spend more money on me than on himself. After an afternoon of malling and shopping with my family, my parents decided to go home and postpone our visit to my lola because they still had to visit my ninang's mom who died and her wake was in Mandaluyong City pa.

So I spent my evening alone, watching One Tree Hill and that was when the horror started. Until now...

Moving on, I woke up unsually early today to get my course card and my reg form. I nervously lined up in the covered courts with Sher and Mau, wondering what my grades would be and if my prediction about them was right.

Well, after that, Ria and I windowshopped a little and ate at Gateway. ü

Yeah. Straight B's in all of the subjects except in PE and Math. PE is A and Math is C. Oh waht the heck. My qpi is just 2.81 and I still need to scrape up .54 points for me to reach the Dean's List because the required qpi is 3.35. Hmmm. I'm still thinking on how I'm going to do it because Math 19 is soooo not a joke. It's gonna be everyday on the second sem and it's equivalent to a throbbing 6 units. So, if I fail Math this coming semester, I'm such a goner. Kepp my fingers crossed. I'm really going to study hard. So, because of Applied Calculus for Business, my schedule is kinda overloaded provided that I will remain in the volleyball club but I still have to take PE classes. It means, less time slacking off, more time in school and career mode on. Plus, it basically means that I really have to focus because the second sem varsity accreds for ADS will be just around the corner and I don't want to mess it up again so it means more training.

Goodbye to social life I guess?=c Christmas is beginning to haunt me now. I'm getting a little feverish with the berrr month chills already.

Okay. It just dawned me that I want to take minors in Political Science. Wala lang. Hahaha. I still have to think about it but in the meantime, it's still in the bag.ü

Hmmm. I guess I have to end it here. I have a long list of things to do during the week like renovating my room and buying new school supplies. For now, it's watch tv till you drop and enjoy the rest of my break because 2nd sem is the killer sem to end my freshman year.♥

Berrrr. How I'd give anything just for things to go back to they way they used to be. But oh well, what matters is now.

Okay. I have exactly five minutes to do this post. (Bleh, not possible) Ay shooooooot. Sige na nga next time nalang. I have so much to say eh. Baboo.♥

How to make a girl smile (how he makes me smile) - Rica's multiply.ü

♥Tell her she is beautiful.
He's told me that lots of times already.

♥Hold her hand at any moment, even if its just for a second.
He always does.ü

♥Hug her from behind.
Never fails to melt my heart every time he does.

♥Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
Nah... Text messages pwede pa.

♥Wrestle with her :)
Haha. I always lose.

♥Don't go hang out with your ex when shes not with you, you might not realize how badly it hurts her.
Haha. No comment.

♥If you're talking to another girl, when you're done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her. Let her know she's yours and they aren't.
Dapat lang dude.

♥Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"
Awwww. Letters. I just love them.

♥Introduce her to your friends as your girlfriend.
He introduces me as his 'asawa'.

♥Play with her hair.
I really love it when he does. He combs it pa when I sleep in his arms... shit. So sweeeet.

♥Pick her up (she loves it).
Oopps. Sorry hon. Katipunan's so far. Pero he's done it twice na.

♥Get upset if another guy touches her.
Naku. Ibang usapan na yan.

♥Make her laugh.
He never fails to.

♥Let her fall asleep in your arms.
Lagi naman eh=p

♥If she's mad at you, kiss her.
Ops. Haven't experienced that yet.

♥If you care about her, then TELL HER.
Hmmm. Have you told me that?

♥Every guy should give their girl 3 things:
a stuffed animal (she'll hug it every time she goes tosleep),
jewelry (she'll treasure it forever),
his sweatshirt sprayed with his cologne.

Stuffed, animal check. Jewelry, check. Sweatshirt? naaah. Jersey lang. Okay na yun.

♥Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.
Oo naman.=)

♥Look her in the eyes and smile.
I just want to melt shen he does.

♥Hang out with her on weekends.
When he's not busy though. I love spending time with him.


♥Kiss her in the rain (girls love this).
Haha. I do. I really do! Parang Dawson and Joey under the rain lang!

♥Kiss her just for the heck of it.
Always always makes me smile.

♥If youre listening to music, let her listen too.
Yep! He sure does this!!!=p He never fails to share the new songs that he likes.ü That's how close we are.

♥Remember her birthday and get her something,even if its simple and inexpensive, it came fromYOU.
it means all the world to HER.
Haaaay. *blushes*

♥when she gives you a present on yourbirthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)
Hahaha. Oo nga hon.

♥Always call her when you say you will, itmay not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don't care so call even if you can only talkfor a minute. Girls don't necessarily have to have hour long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.
Ops. Dunno with the last part but we always stay up until the wee hours of the morning just talkng and laughing about things. Diba? Even if we fight rin.

♥Give her what she wants.
Everything?=D

♥Recognize the small things. They usually mean the most.
Awwww. I know.

♥Dont hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she'll feel left out.
Subukan mo lang. Sampalan na 'to.=D


♥Hang out with her whenever you are free and you should be free to hang with your girlfriend all the time.
Haha. How I wish.=p


♥Manage your time properly, and know your priorities.
Yes hon. Studies muna, then me... and me... and me... Haha=p


♥Never let anyone make her look stupid right in front of your face.
Suntukan na 'to!


♥Always make her feel special.
You always do... well sometimes hindi? hahaha=p


♥Always tell her, I LOVE YOU.
Never fails. -- I love you too.♥

Having a blast<3

I love my sisters♥

The highlights of my sembreak yet.

After Jackie's debut, I was in for another feast at Laine's party. Yeeeaaaah. Well, the evening was great, not to mention the events which happened earlier that day. Hon unexpectedly rang the doorbell while Lanna and I were fussing about how to fix my hair for the party. We were trying to make myself look like a "Greek goddess" but we were soooo clueless on how to do it. Okay. So hon came back a day earlier than what was planned. He helped fix me (specifically put make up on me --> Hahaha=D Career?). I was sooooo touched. And oh, Lanna was soooooo good because my hair ended up looking stylish and all that. And so I arrived at the venue a little after 8, sashayed past the smoking people outside WTC and met up with JV and Bea who were on their way to the bathroom. After fixinf ourselves up, we were ready to partttyy.=p

And so we did. I really had fun eating with my blockmates, delivering my speech as the first in the "Wishing Wands" list, dancing with Bea and JV and taking a whole lot of pictures the entire night. Grabe yung crowd, although there were a lot of people, I met some new ones and got to mingle with the other people. Kuya Euric kept on telling us that we should show how Ateneans rock in parties.=p Yeah! I even saw Ken there because he came at like 12 in the morning. I had a few drinks, one glass of vodka sprite, one shot of tequila and a few gulps of vodak again (courtesy of Niko when the bar ran out of drinks). And then... I just dance the night away.♥

Sleepover was super fun. Although it was a bit disappointing that Maann wasn't there. Nakakainis. We all have our share of sentiments. So there.

We watched movies (The Lakehouse, Tokyo Drift and Bring it On 3), ate a lot, went to SM, shared a lot of stories, stalked people in the net and stayed up until 4 a.m. and woke up at 7. Yeahahaha. Missed my girls soooo much that I really had fun spending the night with them Okay lang if I didn't get enough sleep. Grabe talaga yung feeling na makasama sila ulit.

I just love it.♥ So, the remaining days of the break are coming and I'm going to keep myself busy with unfinished tasks and prep myself up for the second sem. (Especially now that threats of ************ are rampant).

Blogging in the morning.-0-

Ola. I'm here over at Kara's house and we haven't slept after two movies. Yeahahaha.ü Coolness. SAbi nila magpatulog daw ako so, till here nalang muna. Have to wake up early pa tomorrow. Gbye!