Animo La Salle=p

So how does it feel to pass DLSU???

I don't know!!!

I'm just so ecstatic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


How about ADMU, UST and UP???


hmmmm. coming soon in theaters near you=p

A very merry christmas=p

December 23, 2005

This is definitely one of the happiest days in the history of my life.
A day in the mall with my bestfriend, a night of caroling and adventure with my hon...and being taken... once again=p

I couldn't have imagined a better Christmas than this.

There's more to come for the holidays.
Till then!!! Ciao! =p

Happy Holidays.

Merry Christmas!!!

Your wish.

this could've been us. two angels whose worlds have merged to become one. to spend their whole lifetime together. yet, the other angel came down to earth to remain a lifeless, loveless being... she then drifts from the cloud of love that she has shared with her other angel, ready to face the pain and the life that awaits her in solitary loneliness.

You wished that I leave you.

I will, not because I want to, but to grant your plea.

Hon, I'm sorry. I know you can't simply bear this lifestyle. This is why you and ana didn't last long in the first place. This is why we always have fights. This is why you have asked me to leave.

I actually don't know what to do without you in my life...but it would be better that I let you go than to hurt you...


You are...

the most wonderful thing that happened in my life...
the one thing which i held on to after all these months...
the one who kept me going despite all the things which went wrong in my life....

the one who clearly understood all my flaws and imperfections...
the one who appreciated my inner beauty...
the one who accepted me for who i am and for what i'm not...
the one who made me a better person in every aspect...


the person i choose to love... for now and for always...

yet, i have to set you free.

it hurts not being with you...but it hurts to accept the fact that the reason why you're hurt is me.

hon, be strong.

no matter what kind of relationship you go into...
whoever you choose to love even the perfect girl, you can't avoid these things.
i never wanted these.
but as i can't do anything about them for now, i try to understand.

i don't know what specific span of time can heal this wound...

my heart may never love again.


i cannot ask you to leave me unscathed. i'm forever lost without you. but i want you to know,i'll be here. always wishing you the best and all of the happiness...

i love you.
goodbye.


do you want the awful truth???

i can't live without you...
i long for you...
i always want to be with you.

every moment in my entire life has been spent on thinking whether raffy is alright...
if raffy is happy...
if raffy is doing something...
if raffy is thinking of daryll too...

i always think of the warmth of your embrace...
the touch of your hands which makes me feel secured...
your lips...by which you have captivated my whole being.

when we fight, when you threaten to leave me, my world falls apart.
but i care the least to live if i don't have my life. because it's you all along. and then, when the fight is over, i can but claim you and promise myself not to let you go.

but this time, as imaginable as it may be, i try to break away from the only thing which has kept me living.

the pain is yes, unbearable, excruciating, utmostly profound.
the tears aren't enough to keep you from leaving...
to keep you here with the girl i have become with your love.

hon, thank you.
i'm sorry.
i love you.

Mundane.

It's one of these days when the rain pours too hard...I hear mellowdramatic songs in the radio and I'm stuck here at home with loads of stuff to do.

The ordinary.

The best out of life.

Nothing.

Empty-handed.

Bargaining.

Denying.

Not accepting.

Ranting.

This is soooo freaky.

The day of all days...

Guess what? Today or tonight, rather, was the night of all nights. My hon personally asked my parents for me to be his promdate. How's that??? It really kinda freaked me out...knowing my parents of course...I was really praying not to screw things up.

Oh well. I'll save my story for my friends=p ciao!

Sun-day.

Hmmm. I don't really have any idea on where my life is goin'.

Yesterday was a really typical day. The past week was really absurd. Our classes were disrupted every single day so I was enjoying the rest of what we had.

I was really into cheerdance practices and I always go home late. I'm super stressed... i don't really know where I'm going right now.

Yesterday, achi, crunch and I went to the mall to buy a gift for she's 17th birthday. It was tiring and I ended up eating a lot of tuna macaroni here at home. I really had a bad headache... Then, after mass, we went to southad to hang out... and just that. I had fun... Yeah. Because I was with my friends. I think I made the right decision on not going to the Sketchers Streetdance Competition in the World Trade Center Kara asked me to go to. Hmmm. I do hope that Southville won or something.

I think this blog is beginning to be useless. Hahaha. I dont' really care.

It's Christmas...

but i can't really feel it. At least not now...

Outlet.

These past few weeks have been really crazy. Ever since term started, things have been really hectic. Our debate with SPC San Rafael has been forever postponed. The meetings of colors for the intramurals havestarted and it was such a fuss having to audition and all.... But at the least... I'm going to do what makes me really happy.

*Dance and debate* - this yuletide season.

plus, caroling, so include singing.

Yehey.

Woohoo. But don't get me wrong. I practically had to endure a lot of freaky stuff [even up to now] before I made up my mind to attain this level of happiness.
This week was a busy week. My favorite day was Friday. We didn't have any classes at all.

We went to southmall to watch the El Filibusterismo play by the Gantimpala Theater Foundation. The one who portrayed Simoun was Wowie de Guzman. (hahaha=p) But he was good. The story was good and the overall play was done really well. My classmates and i only had three concerns that morning. Our freakin' bus, the lack of ventilation in the canopy of the moviehouse and the surrendering of phones which wasn't really necessary. The bus that we rode was really2 shameful. We like disgraced ourselves. It was dirty, stinky and full of vandalisms...
In short, it really sucked. Big time. In the afternoon, we just had our pre-youth camp... and then we went home.

The big night. I really had to dress up really fast when I arrived home. Then eka and I went to the concert. It was really fun. We had a great time. Plus, since we had the backstage passes, we had the chance to meet the big stars. LouG, Ebe, Mcoy and the others. There weren't a lot of cute guys in the concert although there were a lot of andreans there. Including ***. We jumped a lot and Paulinians were mentioned during the performances of the artists. It ended at around... 1 am but I went home at 2 am... hahaha=p

Then I had to wake up at 8 Saturday morning. My girls and I had to celebrate Kara's birthday. We went to Circle Island in Cavite. It was super fun. The place was a small paradise and we really enjoyed the time that we had. There were the Syokoy boys...and other weird people. We then went to the twin's birthday party. And then, I went to home to celebrate the Holy Eucharist..

Then, up to now, freaky stuff have been happening. i just had my USTET this morning. It was a bit easy and if I don't pass...i just don't know what might have gotten into me. hmm.
Tomorrow's the annual family dinner for my lola's birthday. I can't get a grip on whether i should come or not.

Well that's it. Next week, we'll be busy for our practices. Christmas shopping is just around the corner. It'll be fun. Christmas break is just around the corner. Ciao!=p

Sleepover!!!

Owee. Last Sunday to Tuesday were threeof the most treasured days of my life. Why? I got to spend halloween with my girls!!!=p

These two days are like...

Omg. These past two days have been sooper weird. First I had a day at the mall with my achi yesterday where we had to spend an hour just to find a cab to ride home... Then I had two drunken friends last night... Full details coming up...

Morrrrrrrrning craze.

It's one of these mornings when I've lots of stuff to do but then I'm tempted to browse the net and...write?

Yesterday I sat in psych class wondering if I had the right temperament to live. I magine that. I almost went crazy yesterday due to the pile of work given to us before we go for our sembreak. Wow. Kara and I had a fight (what's new?)

Here's the picture. Tomorrow we'll have our Living Rosary, a chapter test in economics, a chapter test in anaphy (without discussing anything), papers and stuff to be submitted and whatnot.

Mundane. Yep. This is it. The woes of a senior hig school student. Well anyway... People are talking about our EK trip on Saturday. It's still tentative because we can't bribe anyone to drive for us...not counting the guys of course... you know, our parents are more... not-so amenable when it comes to having them drive cars...

Sleepovers are just around the corner. So far, sembreak work's pretty light. We just have 2 projects to work for...the anaphy and physics and for us debaters, our key to the finals... our final match with San Rafael is just around the corner. What else? Hmmm. Stuff. papabels requested that we submit the whole activity plan for the Youth camp..tomorrow? I'm sorry when was that? Tomorrow? Okie. Goodluck to the SC. And oh, the concert for Paranaque rocks is on the 25th=p Mites said we might have this school to school SC thing.=p Oh weel. My dad's birthday and my mom's birthdays are coming up. November is actually a month of birthdays for the Santillan Family=p Hello nightlife=p Last year was Libis...I wonder where this year?=D

Well...i can't say that I'm not into a lot of stuff. Hahaha=p it's 3 am and I'm up and giddy. Ciao!

I'm back. =p

Wow. It's been really a long time since I've updated this blog. I stil remember I wrote long entries here but due to the problems encountered by the pc, I wasn't able to save the entries so now, I'm here to have a not so blow by blow account of the things that happened to me over the months.

Well, it's barely a week before the sem breaka nd I can't believe that two quarters have passed and I'm down to 1 and a half quarter of my high school life. I've gone mad for the past two months, my eyebags grew bigger by another inch, I got slimmer due to my hunger strikeranked the 20 th in class and swore to go suicidal ( but i eventually got over it), almost resigned in the SC, got really active in our parish, won a debate (grand slam and the team consisted of mites and the d3), took up my ACET and DLSUCET, cried over how my brother deleted all my files in the pc when it had to be reformatted, fooled around and made fun out of life.

That's pretty much what I've been doing. For now, because we have anatomy and physiology and new stuff, we have a lot of things going on and we are real busy bodies.

Yesterday I've just gone to the mall to buy stuff for him. Tomorrow is the day. It's his birthday and I still can't figure out how I'm going to give my gift to him.

Oh well. Life's beginning to be perky for me so far. I've got a pretty good idea of where this will lead me and hopefully, it's gonna be better days.

Hmmm.

These days.

Waaah. Now's the time to be in panic mode.

Tomorrow will be the first qtr. assembly (after 10 long years...finally).

And I'm afraid about my performance this qtr. rarr.

I really need to get back on my feet. And I need to expel unnecessary urges for sleep. I really have to write about a lot now. I'm no good in balancing things. I have a lot of stuff going on.:

debate, scc, assembly, school life, love life. argh.

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Remind me again why I'm still alive?

Duh. I dunno. Today, I had to absent myself from school because of a terrible fever and flu.

Gawsh. Humdihumhum.

Last Friday was our fieldtrip and it was oh so fun. We weren't under the supervision of Lakbay Kalikasan...we got poorer under Balwaig Transit. The faci (kafedz) was really corny... It was like "can somebody please stab me?" hehehe=p The caves were really cool and really hard to get in. Especially this yungib 3..."The Chocolate Factory" which I had to sing "Willie Wonka" all the way...

I really had a shave-off of calories when we had our trekking... hahaha=p

Hm...what else? We had our first predecon last Saturday... We met PT (Papa timer) in SPC IP=p

And I'm sick...

Auspicious days...hodihumhum.

Things are like I dunno. I haven't had anything good for the past days. I've been working so hard yet I feel so...dissatisfied???

What is happening with my life? well I don't know. I just know that I have divluged into work, work and more work.

So, focus, focus, focus.

It's barely two days beofre the field trip and the 1st predecon. Wish me the happiest of luck.

How to deal...and bail yourself out of trouble.

(Written while watching YSpeak)

Woah. A lot of things have changed in a split second.

Yesterday I was committed, today I no longer am.

Yesterday I was an ordinary senior student, after taking the UPCAT I no longer was.

Okay. First things first. Why do I claim myself as single? Because I lost my boyfriend over a real petty fight. Yeah. I know. **But i have to admit that there was a 90% feeling of relief and ...riddance? hahaha. Oh no. I'm gonna get killed for saying that. Sorry! Just speaking my mind. Forget that thought.

So, I hope that at least 60% of the stress will be alleviated now that I have no more extra obligations to fulfill. I was really fed up, I got tired of getting myself into a lot of trouble and a lot of unnecessary stress. So, i dealt with it and bailed myself by ending it.

Senior life's been hell. We actually named ourselves as the "Living Dead" because of what we are undertaking right now. Sobrang hassle and all.

I just took my UPCAT and the agony lasted for 6 (including the giving of instructions) hours. My head was throbbing with pain, so were my bladder and my tummy.

Argh. I dunno if I'm gonna be qualified. But I know that I did my best and God will have to do the rest.

I'm in for a lot of things right now. So much for solitary life. I have a long list of things to do so until then. Ciao.

...debates, assembly, sabayan, sc work...academics, parish involvement...

ym status: I'm feelin' so good.

Haaay. Finally. This is one day that I've been cleared of work. But anyway, I still want to finish some work so it doesn't pile up.

I finally got to debate during our club meeting this afternoon. I did rather ermmm. poorly, because we were allowed to give 4 minute-speeches. But anyway...

So, the thing with the script for the assembly is over. all the hard work for nothing... the pressure on Mita and I...

Two weeks to go before the UPCAT...

-- Seriously, I really wanted to give up Senior life for about a week ago. The hassles of being an SC officer, the pressure on my grades and everything.

Things to accomplish:

- college app forms
- review for pt and upcat
- projects
- reports
- debates
- assembly
- sabayan
- pl articles

and much2 more.

:: Woah, the smell of paint in our house is becoming overly addictive.

Pump up the Animo. Yeah right.

errr. It was a real bummer that we weren't able to watch the opening of the UAAP Season 68. Argh. Anyway, there's always next year.

Okay, last Sunday was the first big game of the season: ADMU vs. DLSU.

I'd rather not remember what the score was, for it really disappoints a lot of fans, most especially, Jackie, Nikki and I.
Well anyway, the score was 78-60. Argh. Imagine the pain that I had to endure while I watched the game progress from the 1st to the 4th qtr.

Haay. What did happen to Tenorio and Intal and to the rest of the Blue Eagles? Too bad Tiu's not gonna play this season. That rookie's a real big loss.

Anyway, I believe that this won't happen again. And the next time that they're gonna have their game, ima be at Araneta cheering for the Blue Eagles and triumphantly jumping as they win against the Archers. (haha. =p)

*** School's been tough. But I got a grip. Only that I have to really work hard in our Periodic tests to recover what low grades I'm gonna get for the long tests. woohoo. Counting the days down before the college ent. tests, sbayan, . . . assembly and all.

Resurrect.

Woah. I really have to slow down with things. Time nowadays is really priceless.

I have a lot of things going on. Academics, (so far, so good), college apps, extra curricular ( sabyan, assembly, nutrition month, ). . .

I really need a break. I haevn't slept normally for days now. Well, i eman, sleeping really late and becoming nocturnal is really what I am during the school year.

Once again, I write.

Haaay. These past few days have been sooooo, crazy. Just crazy.

I have a lot of stuff going on; schoolwork, homework, lovelife, family life, etc.

I'm balancing everything and I'm doing pretty well. I don't really have much to do tonight so i guess I don't have to wake up and be all jittery tomorrow morning (as i have done for the past mornings).

I'm really happy with the way things are. Remind me to write something longer and more sensible.

:: PGMA's administration is going downhill. The opposition continues to take advantage of this controversy. What the hell is happening with the Philippines?

At long last, he's mine.

Don't be surprised if my status in friendster is "in a relationship" because I am in a relationship.

After all the hassles and pain, the wait was really worth it.

Asked when and where?

The least romantic setting in the history of proposals.

Well, last night, we were supposed to watch the concert of Hale in st. scho... But then the tickets were sold out and we could no longer be accommodated in the venue. So then, we just ate and hung-out at mcdo taFt.

And then it happened there. haaay. Although is happened "just" there, I consider it as one of my happiest times in life. Parang mas mganda nga un xe spontaneuos eh. Diba?

What the heck. He's mine already.:)

I'm gonna make this last for always and forever. (ahaha. sappy)

Alert.

Senior life has never been this. . . err. I kinda lost the word.

*UP/Ateneo adventure
*Club promo
*School acts

Give me a reason why I should stay.

Is your love for me a reason to keep on fighting?

No reaction.

I thought so.

My senior life is really hectic. Nie told me that I have been a little distracted lately. True enough, but I know very well how ambitious I am, so for that matter, i may as well not worry because I can keep my life intact with these extra burdens coming on.


I can already visualize the time when I go towards your house ( but not really there) just towards the store beside your house and buy something with my girls, C2 for that event. Then I see you and you walk up to me, then I flip my hair and smile at you and turn my back still with my aura radiating so bright that your conscience can't stand it and the voice at the back of your head will just say, "You're so stupid for letting that girl go. You could've been perfect for each other".

I could've been happy. You could've chosen me. Yet destiny has as an eerie way of bringing up two people. "Til we meet again, Raffy. Ciao!:)

Melancholy.

Indecisive. That's my current state right now. I have tried focusing on the things that I need to do in school, yet I find myself putting much effort into seeing this person again and again.

He'll be leaving for Iloilo today. I gave my word to a friend that when he comes back (after 4 days), I'll try to get over him by then.

I don't know. I'm going to take a re-route. I've been here and back and I want to go home.:'(

My first week as a Senior.

Iba talaga ang first week.

Okay, I haven't officially imbibed within me that I have started school. The schedule of the seniors is pretty heavy and here I am, enjoying the rest of my free time while I can.

The first day started with a blast, with me being late for the flag cem and the fear that the student body will impeach me from the council if they found out my absence during that time. And then smooth stuff followed.

To my relief, my spec is Psych, my first choice and the thing that I was really looking forward to.

Argh. I'll put my sched next time.

This weekend, I had a movie marathon with my friends. Shutter in Makati and Mr. and Mrs. Smith in SM B.

Errr. I still have disoriented thoughts.

Ima write soon.

'Til they take my heart away.

My heart, I surrender to thee.

I can no longer mend its broken pieces.

Maybe it's time to do things for me.

Oh well, what's new? I've always done things for myself and I guess this is how things are meant to be.

First day funk.

Here it is, at long last.

My first day as a senior.

Bid me goodluck before I get killed.

And oh, I'm happy now. Things have never been better with my hon.

I told him I realized that whatever happens, I'd fight for him. And for as long as I could, I'll be with him and I won't let go. Maybe I just got used to being the one being sacrificed for. But I guess I do have to do things for this to work. :)

I don't know. At least I'm happy and I can now smile.

The rain continues to pour and I'm buried underwater.

Major fallback. Cowardice. Fear. Risk. I'm on the brink.

When I rant, I stay put, hug a pillow and watch tv or some cheezy movie.
When I feel all crappy, I eat or go out with my friends or start some project.
When I'm hurt, I write.

I have been here before yet I keep coming back. I guess there's pleasure in one's pain, pain in one's pleasure. Love, a labyrinth of mysteries I continue to venture and a bittersweet combination of agony and joy.

Today, the rain started to pour this morning and hasn't stopped ever since. I guess the sky is sharing its sympathy with me. The pain that I'm feeling has become totally unbearable.

Tell me why I'm too afraid to fight for my feelings.

No, I'm not afraid to fight.

I just can't struggle in a battle that's already been won. When somebody declared her victory even before I set foot on the battlefield.

I thought I had it, but then I didn't. I didn't have a single thing to hold on to so perhaps there's no letting go. It's just a formal term used for people who just can't stand the pain anymore. Herewith comes the facade of happiness, of false pretenses of better tomorrows even if they know deep inside that they're hurt and the have lost every reason to smile.

These people are just me, seeking for redemption and for someone to catch them when they fall. However, I have been buried underwater so I can't fall anymore. I have reached the bottom, I have reached the end.

Smile. :)

Sometimes I sit at home and wonder how it'd be
If he had loved me
Truly loved me yes
I learned a while ago that kind of thing
Never happens for me
And so I go around
And just pretend
Love is not for me
I play the circus clown around my friends
Make them laugh and they won't see
That you never let them see ya this way
Don’t want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows it's killing me
So I put on my make-up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is okay
I’m laughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cause I’m dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face
On my face
Singing lalalala
Sometimes I sit at home
By the phone hoping he might call me
But he don't call me
But then I realize
Dreams come true aren't for girls like me
Not like me
And so I go around with my head up
Like it ain't no thing
And when the boys around with all my friends
I’m into other things
Cause you never let them see you this way
Don’t want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows it's killing me
And,so I put my make up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is okay
I’m laughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
But I’m dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face
On my face
It’s not as easy (thing)
Sometimes it’s hard to (face the truth)
It’s not the life that I would choose (that I would choose)
But what else can I do?
If he don’t love me
If he don’t want me
I’m not about to sit around
Let myself go
So I put on my make-up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is okay
I’m laughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cause I’m dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face
On my face

Haay. A bulletin post from friendster which really moved me.

wEn a grL cRies it dOeSnt
mEaN sHe's
wEak.. i
If a girl cries in front of u..
it means that she couldnt take it anymore.

If u take her hand, she would stay with u
for the
rest of ur life; If u let her go, she couldnt
go
back to being
herself anymore.

A girl wont cry easily,
except in front of the person whom she
loves the
most,
she becomes weak.

A girl wont cry easily, only when she love
u the
most,
she put down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of u, please hold
her
hands firmly, coz she's the one who is
willing to
stay
with u 4 for the rest of ur life.

Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of u,
please dont give her up,
maybe bcoz of ur decision,
u ruin her life.

When she cries rite in front of u,
When she cries bcoz of u,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's
feeling?

Think.
Which other girl have cried with pure
sincerity,
In front of u,
And bcoz of u?

She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or
pity,
She cries,
Because crying silently is no longer
possible, the pain, hurt n agony have
bcome too
big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys,
Think about it,
If a girl cries her heart out to u,
And all because of u,
Its time to look back on wat u have done,
Only u will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,
Coz one day,
It may b too late for regrets,
It may b too late to say "im sorry"... ***

To my friends...
please repost this bulletin
Ponder this message seriously.
Dont do this to a girl

You may regret it for the rest of ur life.
Maybe in ur life,
she's the only one who loves u the most.
Remember this lesson before its too late...

Paalam Summer.

Err. Summer seemed to have passed by my calendar real quick. It's barely three days before i go back to school, bury myself in my senior life, focus on my career and oh no: detach myself from someone.

There could be no other worse finale than to suffer from a very wretched lovelife. Grrr.

Oh well. I'm really not in the mood to write the details of that account. But I'm sure of one thing.

That person, in one way or another, changed my life. He taught me how to believe in love again. He built up my hopes that there is, perhaps, the right guy for every girl. Although in this case, he wasn't for me. I still don't know what will happen because we sort of "parted ways" just last night.

You. I thank you for showing me that a person like me deserves to be loved and cared for. I don't really know what went wrong, maybe the timing's just not right. I'll see you then, when I see you. Our world's too close for us not to meet each other again. Maybe by then, we can repair the damage that was done and start anew. I will forever treasure what you have taught and given me especially the name:"lollipop".

I would've fought for my feelings until the last minute, but I realized that I was fighting for nothing.

Just like that.

Just like that, I was waiting for someone to catch me and just like that, I thought he came.

Iba pala talga yung feeling ng mahulog ang loob mo sa isang taong committed sa iba. Iba din yung feeling ng vindictive pleasure knowing na ikaw yung nilapitan niya and hindi ikaw yung nag-initiate na mangyari ang mga bagay2.

Ayoko na ng ganitong buhay. Why can't love be an easy thing?

I don't step on other people's lives so I think I should leave this thing alone. The odds are too extreme and the risks are too dangerous.

Can somebody please make me numb?

Home Alone.

Ooowee. I'm here at home and I'm alone.

So much for shoes. My whole family went out to buy shoes!

Oh well, I still have to prepare for Pam's debut tonight.

And oh, our last game for the season.

Goodluck to this damsel in distress.

My world without love.

Forgive me.

I stare and sit at this corner while the walls are closing in on me.

Gazing upon nothing but my heart lain on the floor, broken into a million pieces.

Those pieces symbolize my dreams; shattered and vanquished from existence, the time that it will take for us to see each other again, the miles that are separating us and the tears that I've cried. . .

Because I can no longer have you.

I can wait.

But not for someone who no longer wants me to.

Precious is you, infinite is our time, a thousand miles is our distance, vanished is our love.

When you go, please leave me unscathed.
I have drowned in your placid being.

Ang pagtatapos ng review.

Dude, pare tsong. I'm afraid I've failed in the simluated test in our review for one reason: math.
As always.

Well, partly, it was my fault. I was so busy with school and my games that I didn't allow myself to have time to review or even practice some drills a week before.

Oh well. I'm counting the days down before doomsday. Malapit nanaman magpasukan.

Senior year is gonna be heaven and hell on earth.

My love has left na. Haay. I hope to see him next summer pa. Will i survive this challenge?
Please pray for me to surpass this trial. To whoever will read this blog.

The Debate Seminar/Workshop was a "success".

For that matter, define the word success. There were definitely a lot of weird stuff before i could've surmised that the seminar was a success.

The whole thing was planned by Jackie and I and we received some good responses from people before the actual week. But then, it was pretty much a nightmare-ish kind of event for me.

The first day was kind of bitin for me because we just attended the seminar in the morning due to our review class in the afternoon. However, I heard that the people in the morning eventually became extinct as the sessions progressed especially in the afternoon. Oh boy.

Well, it was pretty good, considering that we got to discover a lot of potential debaters. The people from the lower batches really did great and I hope I did improve.

So, people. Watch out for us because we'll be joining tourneys and we'll be organizing our varsity to become the best. (ahay. how i wish.)

I totally detest a lot of people right now.

Now let me paint you this picture(sorry, i'm really bad at art). Imagine that you're the one that I'm talking to.

People claim they're leaders and are practically good at anything but then their words are proofs of nothing. Well, smack yoh ass because it's full of shit. Your facade has been running for too long it has got to stop. You actually hurt a lot of people along the way.

Talk if you're asked to and shut up when you're going to say nothing good. Follow my advice and people will eventually learn to appreciate your existence. You've been blacklisted my so-called friend. So puhlease, don't even try to argue because you don't know anything about the art of persuasion contrary to how you appear to know so.

Remember: Hard work always pays off for people who strive hard and aspire to be better at their chosen craft. Some people may not be good in a lot of things, but it's still better than actually claiming that you're good in all things but the truth is, you're just a lousy, immature and insecure person who can't do anyting but popularize herself.

So please. I beg to oppose to whoever you appear to be as who you're not.

College or something like it.

Hayup. Sabi ko na nga ba, it won't be too long before I surrender to math. Grabe yung post-test kanina.

Not long ago, (2 months to be exact), my classmates and I were seriously debating on where we were going to take our review classes. Popular options were the All-Up review offered by our school but the venue was in St. Paul Manila, Vienna, MSA, . . . and of course, the Philacademic Review which we chose after 10 years.

For the past weeks, I have been taking review classes every week, during Mondays and Thursdays. Within that span of time, I have managed to achieve a hell lof of things, one of which is commuting alone from here at home to Taft and going back.


Doing this stuff has made me realize how the world will look like after I leave St. Paul.

When I was still a freshman, my dream school was "The" (as some people would like to put it) Ateneo. I was an all-out supporter of the Ateneo Blue Eagles in every season of the UAAP. One of my teachers back then was Sir F, who taught Consumer's Math, and guess where he is now? He's currently a Math professor at the said prestigous university.

As time went on, I got a little ambitious and I was beginning to write UP on top of my where-I-want-to-be-in-college list. I was exposed to a lot of people from UP and I was really impressed with all of what they have to say I mean, in terms of. . . I don't know how to say it. Sure, it's a really good thing if a person will aspire for UP because of its quality education and despite its milieu, but the thing is, it's not as easy as it looks like. Taking the UPCAT can be a real hassle and filling out your app forms can be really tricky. You have to consider your course (settle for a non-quota one if you want to avoid the inevitable competition,hehehe), you also have to take note of the campus you want to pass in because each has a throbbing cut-off grade, UP Manila (contrary to what I thought) having the highest one. Diliman has the second highest cut-off grade, then LB, the last in Luzon then the next will be the provincial campuses. You also have to study the criteria or the basis of how they will admit you as a "Scholar ng Bayan" and man, that's really tough. It'll make your nose bleed and the next thing you know you'll be rubbing you nose hard on a stone it'll be rubbed raw, flesh and blood. Eww. The thought of it makes me sick. Pardon this figure of speech. hehehehe:)

Then again, there's also La Salle. I don't really agree with the fact that I'm the Archer type of girl, but I can also foresee my self on the grounds of this university.

Right here waiting for no one.

It really gets tedious trying to wait for the right man to come.

It's like I'm a curbside prophet waiting for my rocket to come. Sheezzle. Mag-ala Jason Mraz daw ba.

Okay. A lot of things have been happening lately. As far as I know, I've been so up and giddy to write stuff here in my blog (with my xanga left abandoned). Errm...

I've been really paranoid lately, trying to amuse myself with the things I need to accomplish. But it does really really get tiring not having someone to come home to(anu yun? husband?). O wel, not really.

Maybe I just miss the feeling of having a bestfriend and a lover. You know, having someone by your side who cheers you up when you feel all crappy, someone whom you have endless conversations with and makes you feel worse when you're having a bad hair day.

Writing abou this makes it harder to face the fact that I've been alone for a while. And while challenging myself to have a relationship this senior year does no good, I just try to act as professionally as I could.

***note: The background music is Tell Me Where It Hurts.

Errrm. Note to self: Focus, focus, focus. I ahve entrusted this tiny problem to The Almighty. I just always pray "Thy will be done". But please. . . :(

Oh well. There's a reason for everything, I guess.

To the one whom I've asked to visit my blog.

It's funny how we think that life is unfair and that nature has a really eerie way of including us in the "natural order of things".

The past has to be forgotten.
The present has to be treasured.
The future has to be prepared for.

True enough. But not entirely.

The past is what links us to what beings we are today.

***Okay, enough of this mind game.


Bittersweet. A lot of people has used that to describe their feelings for a person whom they like, but they can never have.

I'm addicted to coffee. Caffeine or the likes of it. There are certain times when I really crave for coffee especially when I can't have it. Too bad.

Starbucks, Seattle's Best, The Coffee Experience, Gloria Jean's. . . Those are my bestfriends. I pretty much make lucrative business easier for the coffee-making industry.

Then, came you.

The nice, perfectly imperfect yet addictive you.

I would've never expected for someone to come by as easily. Kept me in a trance and left me in pain. I was thrilled with the fact that I can finally have someone to call. . .

***whoosh***

That's how you left me. . .
Hanging, suspended. . . in whatever way you wanted to relinquish yourself from the pathways which have crossed us to be at this place.

I don't know. I'm just morbid.

***post ka lng ng comment pag nabasa mo na. if i don't hear from you, i won't even bother. thanks for all the things that you've shared.:)
This isn't the last.

The thing with writing.

It's quite a shame that I have my blog but I have limited things to write about. Not that I'm really lazy to write, I have posts which say "tbc" but then I never get the chance to get back to them and finish them. It's not also a matter of the time when I'm conditioned to write stuff, like when I choose to stay online yet I just answer surveys in friendster and I don't open my blog. Nonetheless, my mind is filled with thoughts. Haaay, how logical. I mean, my mind is too congested with thoughts and my time is too filled up with things to do that I barely find time to even buy new books, curl up and read them.

But what the heck, I'm doing things which are for my career and I know all will turn out well. Maybe I'm just psyched up with the fact that when I open other people's blogs, there are lots of stuff written on 'em. Well anyway, this is my online journal so back off! Haaay.

I was once a great writer, minus the perfect grammar and the number of people who will read my thing and agree with what I have to assert. I write what I want to, everything that's welling up inside me.

But right now, the great writer had to have her summer escapade. Ima be back soon. I give you my writer's word.

I'm not at all pleased.

Just when I thought things are starting to look up, I take the high road and then, crash.

Crap. Crap.

So, I just came back from the Leadership Training, (yeah, okay it has been a week already) and so far, . . .

*Whoosh.

Just when I was about to finish this entry, the load on the net card expired due to extensive use.

The Leadership Training was really a bummer. Really bitin.

The gory details:(hahaha.)

The Leadership Training was brought to us by SPCPasig and Lakbay Kalikasan.

We came late on the first day and finding our groups turned out to be a complete fiasco. But it was quite alright I don't remember much of the things we did because we only had talks and some group activities.

** tbc.:)

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Ima be back soon.

Go figure.

Today was the typical day but was sure loads of fun dahil sa: tenen! Magic Sing. üüü

I wasn't really about to go out because I thought today was so lame, but Reg called me up to say that we had to have our measurements for the uniforms because the submission is tonight. I hesitated and was about to come up with a super lame excuse but she knows me too well and had Magic Sing as a bribe. Haha. She beat me loads of times. No sweat.ü

Then I saw someone today, who unfortunately wasn't able to play bball. Ewan. Bute nga. Beh:p

So, that's pretty much it. I have to come to school on Wednesday and we have to prepare for the cultural presentation. Then, I'll catch up in SM B because we're going to watch The Spongebob Squarepants Movie. Ayossss.:)

I'm the happiest girl on earth.

Today was wow. Grabe. Hands down.

We had the opening in Merville and bongga, with the some smokey things and disco lights. Hahaha.
It was like we were in a CSA reunion.

This evening, we had to solicit money for the sportsfest and we had total bonding with Ali and Audrey. Cool.

Then, I called up Sir Luigi. Man. Haay...Puede na kong mamatay. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

Patay na si Pope. Haay. May he rest in peace.

Let me go because I can't let you go.

One more kiss could be the best thing

Or one more lie could be the worst

And all these thoughts are never resting

And your not something I deserve

CHORUSIn my head there's only you now

This world falls on me

In this world there's real and make believe

And this seems real to me

And you love me but you don't know who I am

I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand

And you love me but you don't know who I am

So let me go, let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for

And I turn my back on loving you

How can this love be a good thing

And I know what I'm going through

CHORUS

In my head there's only you now

This world falls on me

In this world there's real and make believe

And this seems real to me

And you love me but you don't know who I am

I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand

And you love me but you don't know who I am

So let me go, just let me go, let me go

And no matter how hard I try

I can't escape these things inside

I know, I know

But all the pieces fall apart

You will be the only one who knows, who knows

You love me but you don't know who I am

I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand

And you love me but you don't know who I am

So let me go, just let me go(you don't know)

You love me but you don't

You love me but you don't (you don't know)

You love me but you don't know who I am(you don't know)

You love me but you don't

You love me but you don't (you don't know)

You love me but you don't know me

Taft adventures. Animo.

Akalain mo nga nman oh. Today was "the" big day of meeting him. I went to school because it was the distribution of report cards and that i was meeting Jackie and Jentotz there. We had an SC meeting and boy, do we have lots of activities this summer. Ayos.

I got my card already and I am so happy with my grades and standing in the batch and class. Wowee.:) Asteeg. Grabe.

We then went to taft (ride c/o Majun:)) to enroll for the Philacad review and after that we went to CSB to wait for Sir Lui. Unfortunately, he didn't show up. Tae sha. If it weren't for majun and ate jona(small world), we wouldn't be able to survive the adventure in taft. Good thing i met up with Lanna after the fiasco and we went home after the kwentuhan session with her chuva in Mcdo. It was tiring and oh so lame. Ima go show Sir Lui what he did to us. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Whatta. Nice birthday...not!

I have never ever imagined myself on a summer vacation morning sitting in front of the computer and typing an entry for my blog. Taena kse.

Last Tuesday was killer practice. Nice. I survived the circuit and heto nanaman kme sa 5-1 play and the free ball play ek2.

Yesterday, we decided to have pizza delivered here at home and socy, Yellow Cab. My bhi, Reg was bugging me to buy wine or some alcoholic drink to perk things up. At first I hesitated, seeing her so high because she took *****m. But then, it was vetoed. I lost, 2 is to one. I'm actually surprised that I don't have much of a hangover even after I...

We bought 4 bottles of pulang kabayo and mixed it with strawberry and iced tea (the only things we could whip up) and I had to drink 8 glasses of it because they challenged my coming of age. Hello???

Then they bought 2 more and i had to drink another 2 glasses without any juice. Man was I so tipsy. Being the
good girl in the group whenever we have inuman sessions and being the light drinker that i was, i immediately felt nauseaus after 5 glasses and started vommiting in front of Chuba, Reg's dog. Then I told them stories which I can't even remember and I had to go back and forth teh bathroom for at least 5 times.

When I got home, I went staright to bed and guess what after an hour? I had allergies. Tangina allergic ako sa alcohol. GRRR. So, apparently, that's why I'm still up this morning. Parang hindi nga ko tlga natipsy eh, because I'm somewhat normal......Ewan ko, I still feel dizzy and all pero I think it's the mind over matter. Ano??? Basta un.

This is how I started the first day I turned 16. A senior high school student, the SCC officer, the aspiring school paper editor, the passionate debater, the devoted lead vocals of the batch band, the solid dancer of the tangerine team and God knows what. Acheche. Ano na ba to.................

The L word. No, not lesbian.

Remind me again why I'm posting this, when there is no chance ever that he will read this blog?

For you.


I thought it was perfect.
Over the years, I didn’t give a straight answer
Thinking that someday he’d know how much it meant
I just wish I didn’t have to let go even if I didn’t exactly asked for him to stay
But I still hoped he lingered on that day

Maybe it just wasn’t meant to be
Time is enough reason

No one is to blame
It could be me
It could be you

It’s just like that, or is it???


Again.

A thousand words can never defy what we had
A thousand things have been put to compromise
A thousand people have gone along the way
A thousand times I tried to hold on
A thousand miles have kept us apart
A thousand tears have fallen from these swollen eyes
A thousand reasons why I chose to hold on

For all but one

Who was no one

All because I thought it was you.

I just don't get it.

He's so complicated. Why can't we just have a normal conversation? I feel like I'm being too quizzical, asking him about stuff, bringing out pragmatic issues which he obviously doesn't want to talk about. Argh. Boys grow up too slow. Why can't he just bring up topics to discuss instead of escape with a one liner saying... Then, after that, he won't reply to calls and texts anymore, like he did for the rest of the school year after he thought i rejected him.

I feel pathetically stupid.


Well, I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality,
I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath a disguise of a smile
Gradually, I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry

2 days, I still am counting.

Two days before my sixteenth birthday and I still don't know what to do on Wednesday. I'm choosing between staying at home and have my friends come over for pizza or treat them to the mall, like we did last year.

I thought today could be something for a change because a "close" friend of mine invited me out as a treat for my birthday. I don't know what happened to her. Hmmmmmmm. So much for that. I guess things will never change.

Yesterday was nothing special. We just went to Market!Market! ate out, shopped and then went to Church. My prayers on not having Vball training was granted.Ü

I'm so lame. I've got things to do than sit around, worrying if "he" is mad at me.

Wow.

Today, was no ordinary. We finally went out, as a family.

We went to Church, then we had an early dinner at Mongkok in Glorietta, bought groceries in Landmark and i bought extra shirts. Guess what's up for tomorrow, a beauty treatment in a salon. My mom finally got a grip and agreed to come with us. Now, we're a happy family. Wow. This is indeed a miracle.

Can't get enough of Gilmore Girls.

One episode a week is enough to get me hooked in this series. Well, I've been missing two episodes lately so i think i deserve the treat. Today was "the" day of my Gilmore Girls days. It was a 9-episode marathon. I didn't take a bath nor eat for the 9 hours.

How I wish my life was more like I myself is a Gilmore. I envy Rory Gilmore, her relationship with her mom, her grandparents, her relationship with Dean, Jess or Logan for that matter, her school life and everything around her which seems so perfect. Well, not really perfect but I'd rather that I live in that kind of life than struggle in this...

Talk about a bad case of being hooked on those ficitonal series. Well I can be Rory in most kinds of ways. I just need all the help I can get to be able to pull off the stunts in my life. I'm actually happy, (though not at the moment) with all that's happening and all that's in store for me in the coming days of my life. I just wish...

Hmmmmmm. It feels good, having to sit around all day for a feel-good series marathon. Tomorrow is gonna be 7th Heaven. I still feel bad about not having to go on vacation, although it's partially my fault why we didn't get to go out today, twas because of the marathon. But anyway. I hope tomorrow will be a good one.

Who am I kidding?!?

A load of crap. That's how I feel at the moment. In fact, I think this is how I'd feel for the rest of this summer vacation. Why do I always have to feel like this before my birthday?!?

Okay, so the dream vacation for tomorrow has to be ruined by everyone. My dad's asking me to ask my cousins, talk to my titos and titas to my lolo and lola...why not he?!? Why do i have to be the one? It's sooooooooooooo.

And my mom, who whenever i sit by the phone, constantly nags me about my dad who has to go to all my school affairs. I mean, give me a friggin' break.

And my brother who's just naturally doing his job to piss me off.

My dad just gggggrrrrrrr. Freaks me out. He just constantly has this habit to go to the computer and check on me once in a while and tells me, "Yang friendster2 na yan, baka maloko ka jan ah..." It's like slamming to my face that I'm an imbecile. Doesn't he realize that I'm no computer addict and that the reason I'm always sitting in front of the computer is because I've nothing else to do? Think about, my mom, who apparently complains that there's too much noise when I talk to someone on the phone, or that it's noisy when i watch tv in the living room. Well how about it, why is she sleeping in the living room anyway?

And my dad, who just gets on my nerves. I can't watch tv because of the both of them so please let me be? I'm not like my brother who has a lot of indoor activities.

This is too lame. My dad, who is too lazy to drive all the way up to Pampanga, tells me that we'll go some place else. And what's the point of that if I'm going with one who's too tired to drive, another perosn who pisses me off and leaving my mom behind in this "family vacation"?

Grabe talaga. Hands down to this family. I can't believe that this is going to happen right before my 16th birthday. I mean, I'm not wishing for this to happen in any day because i wish that this won't happen at all. But then again, I once thought that this family was something it never will be again-perfect.


I would like to kill myself please.

grrr.

The blog I posted yesterday could not be posted. I wonder why that is.

So here I am today, i mean this evening. If you can see me, I'm wasted as i type this entry. I just came from Vball traing and it was harsh as ever. We had to kill ourselves over some stupid bet on winning Gatorade. It was pretty lame but i guess i got to burn some cal.

I don't know. I'm too tired to think. I wish this can be posted.

summer hassles.

Sheesh. It's the holy week already and my dad says we'll go to Pamapanga on Thursday. I really hope we'll go there and spend the rest of the week with my relatives. The thing i need now is as summer breakthrough. Last year it was a get away in Alabang(?!), then Bulacan, then Cavite. My dad says it's about time we got to Puerto Galera or to Bora, but i think it's too early for that, considering the stuff that i have going on and my brother's not yet finished with his finals.

I am really stuck with a decision to make between my app for school paper editor and vp of the debsoc. Grrrr?!?! All the paperworks still haven't left me alone. I am still currently doing some action plans.

I hope this summer's gonna be different. We're trying to finalize the plans for my birthday. We're going to taft on the 30th itself and we might drop by CSB to check on some things. It's about time we see him again.

it's been too long.

Really. I've been posting blogs like everywhere. I've got 5 posts in hi5 and my good ones in my space. Well anyway.

A lot has happened ever since. I don't know where my blog about the nashdc went but i'm sure i put it here, somewhere...

I've been extremely busy lately. As in. I don't know how I did it but somehow, I managed. After the nashdc, we went straight back to our classes without having to take much of the departmental long tests because we were given exemptions. It doesn't really mean we'd get perfect scores but I sure hope my teachers gave reasonable ones. And then, the dreaded scc interview came. I wasn't actually dreading it as it came as surprise. I was taking my special exam in genetics when I was suddenly called for "the" scc interview. I didn't exactly know why because i didn't know that i was even nominated. I felt kind of stupid for that and thank God that it went well.
Then the convention followed after that. Then the elections, then i won as treasurer...

After that was the hassle for the finals and all. I was kinda sad when kelly told me that we wouldn't be able to have the interaction with claret. I was actually looking forward to it because...

Then we were busy for the recognition program, Maann and I emceed it and I think it went well. I just wan't able to bear Mrs. Lee's hysterical antics before the program even started. whew!

After the program, my friends and I (Maann, Kara, Ria) sleptover at Ria's house in Cavite. Well, sort of a despedida soiree. We planned all of our activites ahead just to make sure there'll be no glitches. Gladly, we had fun. We went to ATC right after the recog proram and had Ria's parents bring all our stuff to their house. It was really a hassle. But according to Ria it was quite alright.:) Then we watched Hitch and had a group pic. We went home at around 11.

We actually stayed up late to have a foodfest. Well, not really. We were taking turns in taking baths so we just had food and then watched tv...:) We slept at like 2 in the morning.

Next up, we agreed to wake up at 9:30 but we did otherwise. We woke up half an hour earlier because Ria's mom woke us up. She said the clubhouse was opened by then and that we had to get an early start if we don't want many kids invading the pool. Well anyway, we arrived there with some people already and we left an hour later with lots of kids in the pool.

We shopped during the rest of the afternoon at ATC and i had my blow-out at Shakey's. hahahaha. We bought clothes and other stuff. I wish I hadn't hesitated in buying 2 diff colors of spandex. hmmm. Well anyway, we went home in the evening reallllly happy.

I called up Ria friday night to check on her. I will really miss her. But no big, she's going back on april 18 and I'll see her then.

The HS grad was yesterday. There were definitely a lot of hugs, kisses and tears. Boy, will i miss their batch.

Well that's it for now. This week's the Holy week and i hope to get some rest. We'll be starting with our vball trainings on tuesday.;( Then after that is my 16th birthday!!!:) Then a whole new set of activities. I have my review, leadership seminar and debate workshop coming up.

I've reached the end.

This week marks the last for this school year. I can't believe that junior year is over and in a few months time, i'll be a senior already. before i know it, i'll be in college. Well anyway. I won in the elections, no big. I'm really excited for the recognition program. It's on wednesday and I still haven't got something to wear. I'm going to be busy,busy this summer and this is my line up of activities:
March 16 - Turnover ceremony (SCC)
Recognition Day
March 17- Ria's Despidida
March 19- HS Graduation
March 20...Holy Week break
March 30- 16th Birthday
April 4-9- Public Speaking and Debate Workshop in school** tentative
April 18- May 18- Philacademic Review
April 19-21 - Leadership Training in Pasig
***volleyball March 20 - Start of training tuesday- heavy training,pm
thursday- training,pm
saturday - jogging, training am,pm
sunday- training,pm
April 3- Opening of Merville Sportsfest woohoo!

the NAsHDC experience. it's hard to let go.

lately, or specifically for the past five days, i have thrown away my life. i haven't been attending regular classes and i didn't have a break like the weekends. all i had was fatigue and a drained brain because of debating. but really, it was an experience that was hard to get over. maybe because i've been feeling a lot of gloominess these days.

last friday was the beginning of the nashdc tournament or the national asians highschool debate championship. we left school right after the first friday mass and we went to claret school of qc. heck it was pretty much a hassle because we were aboard an l300 which has a dysfunctional air-conditioning unit. anyway, we arrived in claret and wasted 7 hours because the start of the tournament was not until 4 pm. so we watched shrek, ate a lot and toured the school.

at past 4, we had the round o and it was really like whatver. we lost because of a soft definitional challenge but anyway, gica our adj was so nice. we were up against swing team a. 2 claret boys and one atenean. ** was really cute and a really good debater. too bad he didn't hang-out for the rest of the tournament.bummer.

second day. i was actually determined to win the 3 rounds of debates that we're gonna have on that day. but unfortunately, we didn't. grrr. i even cried in front of our adj luigi. hahaha. drama queen. i had 2 embarrasing moment in front of l***y. the only thing that kept my hopes up was the fact that luigi said we were fluent and charming. awww. pambobola. hahahaha. no big.

3rd day, we only had 2 rounds left. we won. but i wasn't happy about it or anything. i really felt like revolting most of the time.

***to be continued

goodbye intrams.

Yesterday was really fun. The prospect that it was the last day of intrams really got into our heads which made us ripp ourselves off leaving us broke at the end of the day.

The other dancers and i helped our classmates for the field demo by curling their hair and applying makeup on them. Then we watched them:) It was great. really. After that was fun, fun, fun.

We got into the rides and finally went to the inflatable slide that we were aching to play in for the past few days. It was really fun, not to mention we played under the heat of the sun.(nagrhyme?) We also pigged-out. we ate two slices of pizza, goto, corn, ice cream...and other stuff. Then it was the awarding ceremony. The tangerine team didn't win you know, grand awards but it's okay. It was worth the fun and effort. for me,...

Then, besie showed up out of nowhere. She texted me only yesterday that she's going to manila and that we'll meet somethin' like that. We eventually did after a lot of hesitations. We went to sm jologs. had drinks in fiorgelato. She invited friends over to join us. It was fun.

But at the end of the day, stupid things happened here at home. And today i'm stuck here with my mom in our house. Sheesh. So next week is a new adventure for me as we resume our regular classes. i'm going to study a lot this weekend and prepare for our upcoming debates.:) hope all will turn out well.ü

today. pig-out day.

whatever. so just got home from school and i'm really tired. not to mention i didn't do anything tiring today. just ate and slept and played around. maybe this is due to lack of sleep from last night.

i really had a blast. too bad one person i was supposed to be with wasn't able to come. well, too bad for her.ü she missed a lot. rivermaya was so great and we really had fun jumping around in the moshpit(if you can actually call it that). we were all sweaty and we were singing at the top of our lungs. (reminds me of something....)

hmmmm... speaking of pigging out, i ate two slices of pizza, a barbeque, nachos and other stuff today. i only have 60 bucks left for tomorrow. beats having a lot of stuff around. we watched you got served in the morning and had fun in the "fun booths" before we stayed in the gym to watch the pAuliquiz bee and the badminton games [ so boring by the way].